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[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

Stop. Listen. Cry. Cut. Dead. Wish. I hate this, whenever i stop to think about my life or anything important to me i start to cry because it all evolves around pain and then i either feel like cutting or find myself pacing to get to the razer and then i cut until i wish i was dead and then i wish i wish i wish everything. :(:(:(:(:(:( I dont want to have depression, i dont wanna have agoraphobia or tics or panic attacks or nightmares or flashbacks or suicidal thoughts. I wanna live so i can take a nice walk outside in the summer and feel the cool air rush through my hair and laugh with friends and eat icecream. Instead im inside my room with the sun shining through listening to the birds sing and glued to my computer, forget it, im gonna cut today. I don't care, im gonna cut today, im going to be in control of something, im gonna suck all my neg emotional pain to that phyisical pain and then die. Die until i cant wish,

[Malcolm Tucker]

Look, Selina. You need to get a handle on all this. The first step is to stop cutting. You don't need to cut. You may not realize it but cutting only makes it worse. You are only 17, you have your whole life to turn things around. Please, just work on the cutting. Find something else, like punching a pillow or something to take the pain away. I'm here for you if you need to talk, I promise.

[MadManWithaBox]

I get it. I understand. You don't want it. You have it however, and you have to deal. You can have those walks, the cool air, everything you want. You can have control, take control, as long as you want it.

[starrburst]

Please, please think about this. Today I had Prison day...we met some people who had been through so much, i cried alot through the day, everyone did. You have your whole life ahead of you, you can do what you want, no one is going to stop you apart from yourself. Have confidence, the people i have met have been through things I cry thinking about, like now, a woman...who's child died at the age of 12 from being hit by a car...this woman goes around telling her story to help others with greif and warn others about road safty. She is truely inspiring and I wish I was as strong as her. It made me think how selfish I am, harming myself when other people who love life and have such great potencial are getting dreadfully hurt or killed everyday. I feel like I am disrespectful, I can't explain how it felt to be told her story, about her own daughter. It's just one of the things that makes me fight these damned urges. I hope you realise that we believe in you, you just need to believe in yourself. xxx

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I'll try and give you the best advice I can... You say that you don't care and that you'll cut, to be honest I think deep down you DO care, otherwise you wouldn't be on here and posting this. You need to be stay strong. You ARE strong. And don't tell me you're not. You have so much to live for, so much you could achieve, when you put your mind to it. You say you want to live, you want to take a walk, feel the cool air through your hair, eat ice cream and laugh with your friends - you CAN do all those things.

You say every time you think about things in your life you cry, try not to think about the negative things that cause you to cry, think positively. I know it's hard as hell, trust me, I'm naturally the kind of person who will see the negative side to any situation, and it sucks. Be positive and BELIEVE in yourself. You CAN over come this. Don't forget there's always people here that can and will help you.

If you feel the need to cut, or start feeling low, distract yourself. Do some reading, drawing, go for that walk, hang out with your friends, hell turn up the music so loud that you can't hear yourself think. Find other methods to cutting, someone said they get a red ink pad, some paper and their blade and just cut up the paper instead of themselves. They said it worked, it could work for you to. I just think, don't try quitting 'cold-turkey' straight away, cut down on the cutting first then gradually stop.

You don't need to cut to be in control. If you want it, take it. Don't let ANYTHING stop you from doing what you want to do.

I hope this helps you, feel free to VM me any time :) and stay strong! xx