am i addicted?

[wowfan]

i was reading some of the things people say on here and never realised lots of other people do this as well, i dont know why i started cutting myself i wanted to see wot it was like at first and it felt good.
i liked seeing the marks on my arms and when clothes brush against my arm it hurts and reminds me of them, but now i think about doing it all the time and cant wait till im in my room and can cut again and i feel kinda excited and nervous like its something special, i dont think thats good because now i cut more serious.
im scared im addicted to it i didnt think u could get addicted to this until i read the posts on here, if someone has already been doing it for a few months does that mean it will get really bad and they cant ever stop it?

[Fiction]

It is never a case of not ever being able too stop even if you are addicted. Addiction varies from person too person. One person will cut for a while too deal with some kind of emotional trauma and stop once this is over, others will cut once and never go back and others will become addicted. Is there something going on in your life that is making you cut? If this went away do you think you'd still be cutting? Some questions too ask yourself :)

[tearsxdontxfall2014]

You might be addicted to it. It was pretty easy for me to get addicted to it. I agree with Kitty it does vary for different people. For me, my 'addiction' goes off and on. I can go for a few days without it and then its like i HAVE to do it. It is possible to stop completely but very very VERY hard to do and usually doesnt happen before some damage is done.

A few months isn't very long to be doing it and it will probably be easier to try and stop now before it leads to deeper cuts, stitches, hospital visits and all that crap. If I were you, I'd try to stop now.

[TakeToTheSkies.]

I agree with the two girls before me, everyone is different. Don't ever say you can't stop, don't get into the mindset that you can't stop, then you really won't be able to. I would stop now if I were you, before it progresses.

[Wish]

Never say never is what I want to tell you. It is possible to give up self-harm whether you've been doing it months or years. It is always best, in giving it up, to actually want to because that is half the battle. There must be a reason that you hurt yourself, other than those that you mention, whether you realise it or not and so it is probably best to talk to someone about it. I don't necessarily believe that 'only' cutting months is better than cutting for years because length and severity doesn't matter, you are clearly struggling with something.

Get someone in place to talk to and to help you quit. You can quit, you want to and that is a good thing.

Take care xx

[wowfan]

Thanks for answering, i dont think i do want to stop it though if im honest its like a secret of mine that no one knows and its special i like doing it, maybe that makes me nuts not addicted i dunno,i like seeing the cuts and knowing that it was me that did it i like it sorry maybe im in the wrong place and saying stuff that will anoy other people

[Fiction]

Your not in the wrong place. Whether you are ready to stop or not, self harm is distressing and we are here too help. This site is not just for those people wanting to stop but for those people that need support and reassurance :)

[MadManWithaBox]

To put it differently, when you cut, you release endorphins that make you happy. So you actually can get addicted, even if its not an addiction to a drugs or alcohol. Not on the same scale, as it were.

[johnalbert]

It reminds me of a buddy who started cutting himself after the sudden loss of his mother. Soon it was converted to addiction and the consequences were severe to which he was shifted to a rehab. I figure that you are addicted so please take care of yourself before condition worsen.

[georgiamay]

yeah like everyone else has said, it sounds like you are addicted, but that doesn't mean you cant stop. whenever you want to cut, just distract yourself. i know it's hard, i've been 13 days today without cutting, and yeah it is hard. but i know that i can because if i want to stop, then i'll make myself, if that makes sense?

and matt is right, it does release endorphines, so techniquely it is an addiction.

maybe you should tell someone who can help you through this if you feel ready to open up about it, but to be honest, the fact that you've posted this and asked this question shows me that you want help, so i know you can stop. have you got someone you could go to about it?

hope you're ok, PM or VM me if you ever need to talk :)

[wowfan]

Nope ive got no one i can tell about this, (excpet everyone on here) id not want to tell anyone about it either they would think i was mental or something theyd not understand and id not know how to explain it anyway, cause i dont really understand why i do it, so how can anyone else..

[georgiamay]

i completely understand how you feel, but people do understand. professionals will be help, and they'll understand. your family and friends might not completely understand, but they can still help and support you. my dad didn't understand it at all when he found out about me Self harm, but he still managed to try and get me help. he didn't understand, but he was still there for me.

and whenever you feel like you want to cut, post on this forum, because everyone here will help you.

[wowfan]

yeh i know people here understand, ive been reading other posts and it seems like everyone really supports each other. im not going to tell anyone else family/friends, id be too ashamed and they would make me stop and i dont think i want to sometimes, its wot i think about all the time, i like it and look forward to doing it, then feel stupid when i have