Oh no.

[TheLovelyScars.x]

Recently, i've been able to go a full week and a half without throwing up and it felt like a huge acheivement to me, but as the urge got more and more intense, i fell for it.
Today, i began purging again.

What i cant believe is the fact that i let this happen.
Yes, it feels so good afterwards but its not going to get me anywhere is it?!

I'm going to make myself a promise, that if i let the same thing happen again, im going to get some help, the professional kind.
I cant let this happen again though, it's been going on long enough.

As for now, the only thing i can do is try to last it out and thankfully i have my bestfriend around to support me. He said he believes in me and knows i can make it through this, and hearing that gives me strength and motivation towards getting better.

x

[Wish]

I'm glad that you've had your best friend to support you, that must be really helpful :) Keep talking to him and letting him into your thoughts and feelings and actions. It sounds as if he wants to help and does care about you a hell of a lot- so please remember that.

Perhaps professional help would benefit you? It sounds as if purging has been part of your life for a very long time and so it will be naturally quite difficult to beat- it's good that you have the will and the want within you though. That'll make it a whole lot easier. Hold onto the fact that these behaviours are damaging and not necessarily desirable and keep fighting. Maybe relapsing again would be a good time to seek professional help, but then the fear of professional help might stop you purging (which would be good) but ingrain other bad thoughts into you.

Take care xx

[SapphireDragon13]

If it helps any, purging can lead to dental problems [if you want reasons not to do it]. The reason behind this is that the stomach acids that would normally break down food in digestion wear away the enamel on your teeth. Sorry if that was too negative, but I hope it helps. :)

~Jenelle

[BeautifulDisaster]

After purging myself for 5-6 years, in response to the above, I already have dental problems from it & it doesn't bother me at all. I also have life long medical problems too. I doubt it'd bother anyone else with an ED either. But, if you want to really put someone off purging, I'd recommend saying that with every purge, you are at risk right there & then of dying.