Should I?

[MadManWithaBox]

My doctor has offered. to let me go. Into a place for mentally troubled teenagers. In relation to what I have. Its gotten to the state where they are threatening to put me there. I can't decide if I should go or not. I could use some help here/

[smile]

Im not very good at helping but i thought i would try :). Personally i think you should go... it would probably be of great benefit to you and help you stop hurting yourslef and ruing your life. Why are you wary of not going? Are there major reasons why you dont want to go? It might be good to take help that is offered, apparently doctors know what they are doing to help you and really do want to help you and it may be good for you. I would seriously consider going. But this is me and its ultimately up to you :) i hope this helped somewhat, take care :) xx

[Wish]

I think that if you think that it would help you then you should give it a try- it can't hurt, right? Your doctor is the one who is up on all this information and so I'm sure they know best. What do you think about it all? xx

[Sith Lord 13]

It's not an easy choice Matt. I'm not gonna lie and say that they're all sunshine and rainbows. I'm not gonna tell you they'll definitely solve your problem. But they might help. Have you seen the place yet? I'd suggest doing your own research on the place and see what you find, because each institution is different.

[MadManWithaBox]

Well I think it sounds awful. But I don't actually know anything about the place in question, nor do I know anyone thats been.

[Sith Lord 13]

Well I think it sounds awful. But I don't actually know anything about the place in question, nor do I know anyone thats been.

Why don't you research it a little?

[MadManWithaBox]

I did. I read the topic on here about it. Now I'm sure it's awful.

[Sith Lord 13]

I did. I read the topic on here about it. Now I'm sure it's awful.

Did you research the place they're talking about you going to? Each place is different.

[MadManWithaBox]

Well I tried. But I don't know anyone, and I don't know where to ask.

[Sith Lord 13]

Well I tried. But I don't know anyone, and I don't know where to ask.

Try Google. Always a good place to start.

[MadManWithaBox]

Well I saw the website. Now It looks even more terrifying.

[Sith Lord 13]

Did you find anyone who's gone there and posted comments on-line?

[MadManWithaBox]

No. But I read the thing off the website. Which makes it sound terrifying. If they see what I did on monday, they'll make me go. I can't go.

[Sith Lord 13]

Will this maybe help incentivise you to not need their help? Give you that little extra help to not cut?

[MadManWithaBox]

But I already did it on monday. And they still haven't even begun to close properly. When they see this, they'll make me go.

[Sith Lord 13]

Are they defiantly gonna see it?

[MadManWithaBox]

I have to see them this week, cos I haven't yet. And its almost certain they'll tell me to roll up my sleeves, and examine my arms. So I'm screwed basically.

[Sith Lord 13]

I don't know what to tell you Matt. It's not gonna be the worst experience in the world, if you do have to go. But you can try to talk to them. See what happens.

[MadManWithaBox]

Its entirely possible its all for the best, and It might really help. But I'm absolutely terrified. I have to talk them out of it. Give me one more chance.

[Sith Lord 13]

Either way you'll be OK. :hug: You're gonna be OK Matt.

[MadManWithaBox]

He is punishing me. My head. He is going to make me cut. He's not going to let me go. He doesn't want any more threats to his power.

[Scarface]

I don't think i would want to be there. You have to work on your persuasion skills a little more. Maybe there is someway that you could show them by doing some things around the house or showing that you don't have problems.

[Sith Lord 13]

Don't listen to him Matt. You're stronger than him. Better than him. You can fight him. I know you can.

[MadManWithaBox]

I've been trying to fight for him for six years. It isn't working. Te medicine is making me sick. He is killing me. And he won't let me die.

[Scarface]

Mind of matter, if you don't mind it don't matter. Don't let his silly words rent space in your head. If you know deep down that you're not then his words are irrelevant to you.

[MadManWithaBox]

He makes me do it. Makes me listen.

[Sith Lord 13]

You gotta keep fighting. You can beat him Matt.

[Scarface]

Just don't allow him to get to you like this. You can prevail.

[MadManWithaBox]

He won't let me die. He makes me do thing. he's punishing me. He's whispering in my ear. He's standing there, mocking me.

[Scarface]

there has to be a loop hole. Maybe there is some way of leaving him and staying with some other family members.

[Sith Lord 13]

Matt, you're stronger than he is. You know that. You can stand up to him. Resist him. Fight him. Overcome him. You're stronger than he is. And you've got people to help you. :hug: You can resist him Matt. I know you can.

[MadManWithaBox]

They tell me he doesn't exist. That he only exists to me. They are lying. They are the sick ones.

[Scarface]

Exactly, so why let them rule your thoughts. you are giving them power by feeding into their shit and thinking about it.

[MadManWithaBox]

Cos I know he's there, and they insist he isn't. They tell me I'm ill. I am not ill. They are lying, and I will prove it.

[Sith Lord 13]

How do you plan on proving it Matt?

[Scarface]

Prove it to them. As some will say "Stick it to the man" just do it a safe way.

[MadManWithaBox]

They will be forced to admit he is real. Then, they can stop him.

[Sith Lord 13]

How Matt? How do you plan to prove it to them?

[Scarface]

As long as you don't do it where you will injure yourself or others or put yourself upon harms way

[MadManWithaBox]

He'll make me do something. Then I'l say look you can hear and see him. he must be real. Then they'll deal with him, and not with the supposed illness I have, that they can't prove.

[Sith Lord 13]

And if they don't hear him?

[MadManWithaBox]

Then I'l keep on going till they admit they hear him, and see him. They're doing this to spite me.

[Sith Lord 13]

Is that what you really believe Matt? Why would they be going through all that effort just to spite you?

[MadManWithaBox]

That's what he said. If i question his opinion, he'll make me cut myself again, or hurt my head.

[Sith Lord 13]

You can fight him Matt. You don't have to cut because he said to. You're not going to enjoy it, but you can win. He doesn't have to control you.

[MadManWithaBox]

He makes me cut every night. If I disobey him, he hurts me.

[Sith Lord 13]

You can fight him Matt. I know you can. You can win.

[MadManWithaBox]

If I agree with you, he'll make me do one of worst punishments he said. So please don't.

[Sith Lord 13]

OK Matt. Can you tell me what he want's you to do? Or would he punish you for that too?

[MadManWithaBox]

He wants me to do the broken glass again. He made me do that last night. Its punishment for talking to people he doesn't want me to.

[Sith Lord 13]

:hug:

I don't know what the answer is Matt. He's strong. Very strong. So are you. You will find your way through, I know it.

[MadManWithaBox]

I'm not as strong as him/

[OnceMoreWithFeeling]

You can do anything you put your mind to, you just have to keep trying.

[Sith Lord 13]

What makes you say that?