I've had enough u.u

[AgusCO]

Okay,so this is more of a rant than a call for help, I guess.
Anyway,I've had enough of:

People saying stuff about me. I'm tired of acting like I don't care about it.
Being no-one first choice.
Being no-one best friend.
One of my friends(the one I like ¬¬) asking me to let him use my cellphone to text his girlfriend(or whatever it is) with overly-affectionate messages.(Yeah,he is a guy, my signature has got the colours of the bi "flag" in case you haven't noticed)
Being unable to say "no" to him at all.
Living under my family's pressure to do everything as they wish and be some kind of flawless person.
Pretending that I'm always in a good mood because I consider my friends have had enough of my mood changing a lot over the past years and because I don't want my family to ask me what's wrong.
Pretending all I care about is fashion,perfumes,Anna Wintour and other "frivolous" stuff. I mean fashion is indeed something I love but it's not the only thing I care about!
Trying to convince myself that my friends actually care about me even if I'm left alone most weekends and during all my summer holidays for 4 years >.<
Never being good at anything or for anything.


Bleh, nothing I can do about it anyway

[misery_business]

:hug: I know how you feel sometimes, your going theough a hard time,
You can always come here and vent on vt and we will be here for you XX
:)

[Mike321]

Your going through a hard time
I know how you feel about the school issuses, I spent most of my school life on my own
Things will get better.
And here is a good place to rant/vent , we'll be here for you

[Aspiringanonymous]

:hug3: But, hun, you can do something about it.

You can recognize that it is not necessary to live for the people around you, but rather for yourself and the things which can bring genuine fulfillment to you. There is no need to forcefully put up a front in order to make friends which seem to not value your friendship anyway, no need to put up with anything uncomfortable just to have it all contribute further to inner suffering.

That said, oftentimes the dynamics in our environment are complex and cannot be easily broken through, but that still does not leave you completely powerless. Do what you must do, but don't let external circumstances confine you internally as well. Remember, alone does not have to mean lonely. It's okay not to have a best friend or a significant other. Meaningful companionship can be sought in many ways, such as with animals, in nature, or reaching out to those in need - such as in communities like this.

It is very difficult to resist family and social pressure to think and behave in certain ways, I know; following through with the meaningless motions seems so much easier than dealing with whatever chaos could result from a showing of defiance. And that is okay, but don't forget that the aim is not to endure these pressures forever - it is to endure now as necessary, so that the day will come when the influence of these people will weaken, and the mask can be peeled off to reunite with your true self. Never lose touch of who you really are underneath all of that meaningless pretense.

There's no need to be 'good enough' for anyone or anything. Be good enough for yourself. Cliche, but I'm serious. The only one who knows you best, abilities and flaws and all, is yourself, and therefore you are the only one who is capable of setting the most reasonable standards for yourself. In doing so, take care not to be influenced and muddled by others' perceptions - after all, they represent only a partial understanding, or really none at all.

You can decide to take responsibility for your own well-being, to find a suitable approach to these circumstances that will maximize independence of your consciousness.

All the best to you. :hug3:

[AgusCO]

Thank you all ^^. Support really happens to help me, sincerely :)
Never lose touch of who you really are underneath all of that meaningless pretense.
That's truly a great statement(Actually your whole post is quite wise). I will try to keep it in mind forever.
And actually, my friends aren't bad. I mean my two guy friends(the one I like and another one) are the ones I've told that I'm bi and they, like, when I'm sad they do care for me ^^
Well,the text messages...I'm going to have to deal with jealousy, I guess.
Again,thank you all!