idiotic i know..

[Violetmonster]

i had a crap day at school.
i spent the day on my own, since i am no longer part of a group.
someone well known for being like that, decided they'd take something i said, and twist it so everyone would be mega pissed with me.
god knows whatelse shes been saying..
now i regret leaving my old group, and want to go back, but i don't think they want me either..
the whole day drove me to do something really stupid
when i got to my boyfriends, i went and sat in his kitchen, and i just cut my arm, all over my lower arm, its full of cuts, that are blatently going to be there for a while, plus with it being very hot here, i'm going to find it difficult not to have my arms on show. my school don't take to self harm very nicely..
my boyfriend said blame it on my dog, but its all crossed over and covers a big area..

btw, my boyfriend didn't know what i was doing, he thought i was getting a drink and something to eat, before anyone says he should of stopped me, he knew what i'd done when i came back though, so now hes botherd too.

[ErykaInspire.]

I know how stressful High School Gossip can be. Put some Vitamin E on the cuts to help with scarring, and possibly try to cover them up with some cover up. People say things, or twist what other people say around, to make themselves seem like more or a threat. All you can do is walk with your head high, and correct whoever is twisting your words. Confront the people that may be mad at you and explain what's going on. If they have any common sense whatsoever, they should understand. If they don't, Oh well.

As for groups. If they're your true friends and if you think they're worth going back to, then they'll accept you.

Don't let your mind tell you otherwise. Go see for yourself.

I had been a cutter for 4 years. One year cut free the 4th of July. I know how hard it is to resist, and how tempting it is. But it is possible to get through.

Message me if you need anything, Okay? x

[starrburst]

Try to talk it over with your ex-friends, or go and talk to your boyfriend about it. He could really help you. Couldn't you stay round with him at school? Or, does he not attend the same school? Anyways, try to see how long you can go without cutting. I hope you get on alright, pm me if you want to talk ;)

[Wish]

Sometimes people hurt others because they feel bad about themselves and they don't know how to do something about it- that means that it is their fault, not yours at all. I remember having people spread stuff about me at a youth group I used to attend and it hurt, it really hurt and I would often lose control and hurt myself like you seem to- it all made sense, you know, in quite a warped way.

I am glad that you have your boyfriend to support you, please let him in and talk to him about why you're feeling what you are and what you can do about it. You say that he is bothered and that is only natural because he cares about you.

As for the cuts on your arm, can you use Bio Oil to try and get them down. I've found Bio Oil works best when they are still cuts and still in the healing process. Otherwise, you could buy floaty 3/4 length tops with bracelets to try and hide it to the world- just remember to let someone in, yeah?

As for this person spreading stuff about you, don't let them show that it hurts you. Talk to your old group of friends about what is happening- you never know, they may surprise you in their reaction.

Take care of yourself :) xx