Omg overwhelming day

[HeroesAndCons]

First, today i relapsed and put "H8" on my leg
then i get an emotonal breakdown
then im getting a lecture from my sis and mom
and im overwhelmed
i need my blade
in my sisters car i found a pop tab and used the sharp side to get a "fix"
and im sick of today and want everything to die
the blade is in my drawer
and im screaming for it
maby just one cut
and on the lectures i was gonna cry i was thinking i want my blade
just to feel pain instead of sadness
i want to feel pain now
maby i mite do it afterall
meh i got nothing to loose
Xx

[Ryhanna]

Try not to talk yourself into doing it.
I could see it happening there...

Instead try the opposite. "I don't need to cut, I'm fine, I'm great! I can just push past it."

See if that works.

[crimsonangel]

I'm sorry that you are having a rough time right now :( I know this sounds corny or cheesy but what usually helps me get through days/times like that is thinking that the next day will be better and that I will make it better. I hope that things get better soon in your life!

[Mike321]

They are only giving you a lecture becuase they care
And dont push yourself into doing it, you know yourself that its not a good thing to do and no matter how much you want it, keep fighting the urges.
I know its hard but try and keep your mind off the need to cut, just take a few deep breaths and keep focused
PM me anytime