1_21Guns
June 21st, 2010, 06:28 PM
painkillers numb nerve endings.
but what's a nerve ending to me anymore?
boxes pilled up. waiting.
every ache and pain, another excuse.
it's not the nerve ending that i want to be numb anymore though.
its me.
pill after pill after pill.
hoping it will all go away.
vodka sits in the fridge, almost looking at me.
clear like water, seems like something you'd drink to stay alive.
why not eyy?
sat there looking so pure.
like it could never do a drop of harm.
i think the 15% of alcohol,
shown by a small text,
pretty much says it all.
adding up so many numbers.
totals of the drugs in painkillers.
wondering if that much will kill me yet.
not even measuring out the glasses.
just necking it out of the bottle.
never seems like i've drank much.
maybe i havent.
it's enough though.
so what are those little nerve endings?
and why do they hurt us so much?
maybe if i didnt lie awake at night.
i'd know the answer.
what hurts more?
those little nerve endings i can numb.
or the end of my nerve to hold on.
slipping off it, slowly but surely.
lifes just one big battle to stay alive.
when we're wounded how are we supposed to fight as well?
how are we supposed to not be hit harder when we're down.
yet we can't take a time out of this fight.
it just never ends.
then it gets the better of us in the end.
becuase those nerve endings wont numb forever.
they never really numb at all.
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incoherant ramble. i'm tired XD
but what's a nerve ending to me anymore?
boxes pilled up. waiting.
every ache and pain, another excuse.
it's not the nerve ending that i want to be numb anymore though.
its me.
pill after pill after pill.
hoping it will all go away.
vodka sits in the fridge, almost looking at me.
clear like water, seems like something you'd drink to stay alive.
why not eyy?
sat there looking so pure.
like it could never do a drop of harm.
i think the 15% of alcohol,
shown by a small text,
pretty much says it all.
adding up so many numbers.
totals of the drugs in painkillers.
wondering if that much will kill me yet.
not even measuring out the glasses.
just necking it out of the bottle.
never seems like i've drank much.
maybe i havent.
it's enough though.
so what are those little nerve endings?
and why do they hurt us so much?
maybe if i didnt lie awake at night.
i'd know the answer.
what hurts more?
those little nerve endings i can numb.
or the end of my nerve to hold on.
slipping off it, slowly but surely.
lifes just one big battle to stay alive.
when we're wounded how are we supposed to fight as well?
how are we supposed to not be hit harder when we're down.
yet we can't take a time out of this fight.
it just never ends.
then it gets the better of us in the end.
becuase those nerve endings wont numb forever.
they never really numb at all.
_____________________________________
incoherant ramble. i'm tired XD