Drekkin
June 20th, 2010, 12:46 PM
Man, I don't know what to do.
Here goes...
About a month ago I changed my seats in one of my classes, and I started talking to this one guy. He knew somethings about this scholarship I applied for, and I wanted to see how it went. He's a year older than me. He's pretty cool, and I rarely talked to him before, so it was pretty nice getting to know him. Actually, I met him before, but in detention. I wasn't in there 'cause I was an asshole to the teacher, or a delinquent. I was only there 'cause I had excessive tardies. He was there for that same reason. We only talked a little then, 'cause the detention in our school's different than most.
Soon enough we started talking, and hanging out in that class almost everyday. That guy has some fucking awesome drawing skills. They weren't all original, but there was no sign of being traced, so that guy really did have some skill. I draw too, so it was pretty awesome knowing the guy knows how to draw too. We'd either talk about that or some other classes. Apparently he also went to the same middle-school I did, so I'd bring that up too. It's like we became good friends, or even best friends, or something, I have no idea. We'd all talk in our table, with some other classmates (three girls and some other dude), and just, I don't know, talk, and laugh about shit. It all happened in less than two months.
Coincidentally, our moms also knew each other 'cause of the PTA meetings at school. He found out 'cause we all took a picture on his mom's digital camera, and he noticed me right off the spot. So it was all a coincidence.
Anyway, it was all pretty cool, and pretty sweet. Except one thing. He's a senior. I'm a junior. He's graduating in less than three days. I even went to this scholarship ceremony, and I saw him and a lot of other senior friends walk up the stage and accept their scholarships. He was actually pretty happy when he saw me clapping/applauding for him. I was too. After the ceremony, we all took pictures, and I took a picture with this one girl, who was a very good friend of mine. Then he asked me to take a picture with him. I did, and we took two. One by his side, and the other with hands on both of our shoulders. When that happened, I felt pretty warm, on the inside too. Two days before was the last day of school for the seniors before they start graduation rehearsals. In our class, on the last bell, I wished him good luck and shook his hand. He then hugged me, and I did too, patting him on the back. Man, I don't know, but that warm feeling was there too.
The last day of school was over on Friday. I was fucking relieved and all, but I felt this weird feeling. I've had that feeling before, but it was a different circumstance (I almost made the worst mistake in my life that could've fucked me over, and possibly destroyed a good friendship). This time the feeling felt different. I kept thinking about him. He was on my mind the whole day. What made the feeling stronger was not only the fact that he was graduating, but something else. That scholarship he won gave him almost a full-ride fund to a college form a selection of colleges.
He's moving to Michigan. He's leaving, and I won't see him again. I've been thinking about that all day yesterday, and it's been pounding my mind. I don't think I'm fucking myself over, but I can't stop thinking about that, or him. I already decided I wanted to go to the graduation ('cause I made a lot of senior friends), and see him, plus some other good friends, graduate. I still want to go, and now I feel like I have to.
I'm straight, and I've had my eyes on a few chicks before, but I've never felt like this before. We've only really known each other for less than two months, and already I'm feeling really down that he's leaving. I'm sad the others are also leaving, but I think I'm going to miss hims the most out of all, him and another good friend I met in the 9th grade.
He's a really awesome guy, and cool too. Man, I swear, I've never met anyone like him before. I guess I can say he the only real/good friend I made in less than a year, I guess. I don't know if he considers me like that, but he's a really good friend. But now I think I have some feeling for him, and now I don't know what to do.
Like I've said, I've never felt like that before...and he's leaving soon. What should I do?
Here goes...
About a month ago I changed my seats in one of my classes, and I started talking to this one guy. He knew somethings about this scholarship I applied for, and I wanted to see how it went. He's a year older than me. He's pretty cool, and I rarely talked to him before, so it was pretty nice getting to know him. Actually, I met him before, but in detention. I wasn't in there 'cause I was an asshole to the teacher, or a delinquent. I was only there 'cause I had excessive tardies. He was there for that same reason. We only talked a little then, 'cause the detention in our school's different than most.
Soon enough we started talking, and hanging out in that class almost everyday. That guy has some fucking awesome drawing skills. They weren't all original, but there was no sign of being traced, so that guy really did have some skill. I draw too, so it was pretty awesome knowing the guy knows how to draw too. We'd either talk about that or some other classes. Apparently he also went to the same middle-school I did, so I'd bring that up too. It's like we became good friends, or even best friends, or something, I have no idea. We'd all talk in our table, with some other classmates (three girls and some other dude), and just, I don't know, talk, and laugh about shit. It all happened in less than two months.
Coincidentally, our moms also knew each other 'cause of the PTA meetings at school. He found out 'cause we all took a picture on his mom's digital camera, and he noticed me right off the spot. So it was all a coincidence.
Anyway, it was all pretty cool, and pretty sweet. Except one thing. He's a senior. I'm a junior. He's graduating in less than three days. I even went to this scholarship ceremony, and I saw him and a lot of other senior friends walk up the stage and accept their scholarships. He was actually pretty happy when he saw me clapping/applauding for him. I was too. After the ceremony, we all took pictures, and I took a picture with this one girl, who was a very good friend of mine. Then he asked me to take a picture with him. I did, and we took two. One by his side, and the other with hands on both of our shoulders. When that happened, I felt pretty warm, on the inside too. Two days before was the last day of school for the seniors before they start graduation rehearsals. In our class, on the last bell, I wished him good luck and shook his hand. He then hugged me, and I did too, patting him on the back. Man, I don't know, but that warm feeling was there too.
The last day of school was over on Friday. I was fucking relieved and all, but I felt this weird feeling. I've had that feeling before, but it was a different circumstance (I almost made the worst mistake in my life that could've fucked me over, and possibly destroyed a good friendship). This time the feeling felt different. I kept thinking about him. He was on my mind the whole day. What made the feeling stronger was not only the fact that he was graduating, but something else. That scholarship he won gave him almost a full-ride fund to a college form a selection of colleges.
He's moving to Michigan. He's leaving, and I won't see him again. I've been thinking about that all day yesterday, and it's been pounding my mind. I don't think I'm fucking myself over, but I can't stop thinking about that, or him. I already decided I wanted to go to the graduation ('cause I made a lot of senior friends), and see him, plus some other good friends, graduate. I still want to go, and now I feel like I have to.
I'm straight, and I've had my eyes on a few chicks before, but I've never felt like this before. We've only really known each other for less than two months, and already I'm feeling really down that he's leaving. I'm sad the others are also leaving, but I think I'm going to miss hims the most out of all, him and another good friend I met in the 9th grade.
He's a really awesome guy, and cool too. Man, I swear, I've never met anyone like him before. I guess I can say he the only real/good friend I made in less than a year, I guess. I don't know if he considers me like that, but he's a really good friend. But now I think I have some feeling for him, and now I don't know what to do.
Like I've said, I've never felt like that before...and he's leaving soon. What should I do?