DragonflyBec
June 20th, 2010, 07:59 AM
Well I've had a rather troubled past as a child and it followed on being a teen now. i've suffered a sever anxiety disorder which conveniently gave me depression :( i was 'medically' diagnosed with all of this last year and was put on medication. Ive recently come on it now.
Anyways I'm moving on from this now, from the age of about 8 i gained alot of weight, and have recently lost it through Binge eating and throwing up; I went on a massive diet and lost four dress sizes. im at an healthy weight now. However i have no motivation to exercise or believe in myself; so I sit there and Eat as much of watever I can, its not that particularly enjoyable; I then throw it up. I would like to know how to kick start some motivation into myself?
i struggle with sports i find them too competitive. I have a self image issue which does not help to my favor. and then when i decide to go for a run/walk i do and i feel proud but then the next day... i swipe it off and go i cant be bothered; Im getting lazy. I'm struggling to find hope here. I'd love some advice on what the heck to do. it doesn't help that I dont have very many friends currently which in effect has turned me into a rather shy and in timid person in reality. it all sounds crazy im great at giving advice to others; but seeming not to myself. My Wonderful BF is my best friend and closet friend and one of my only friends lately; hes wonderful and helpful. but i'd love to seek further advice and help from people who are not personally involved. maybe some ways on gaining some more friends..
thanx
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Anyways I'm moving on from this now, from the age of about 8 i gained alot of weight, and have recently lost it through Binge eating and throwing up; I went on a massive diet and lost four dress sizes. im at an healthy weight now. However i have no motivation to exercise or believe in myself; so I sit there and Eat as much of watever I can, its not that particularly enjoyable; I then throw it up. I would like to know how to kick start some motivation into myself?
i struggle with sports i find them too competitive. I have a self image issue which does not help to my favor. and then when i decide to go for a run/walk i do and i feel proud but then the next day... i swipe it off and go i cant be bothered; Im getting lazy. I'm struggling to find hope here. I'd love some advice on what the heck to do. it doesn't help that I dont have very many friends currently which in effect has turned me into a rather shy and in timid person in reality. it all sounds crazy im great at giving advice to others; but seeming not to myself. My Wonderful BF is my best friend and closet friend and one of my only friends lately; hes wonderful and helpful. but i'd love to seek further advice and help from people who are not personally involved. maybe some ways on gaining some more friends..
thanx
x