1_21Guns
June 20th, 2010, 05:29 AM
... then her patriotic tone is enough to send anyone up the wall.
i woke up this morning, my eyes were still watering, my face was wet, and my pillow had a patch on it... havent done that for a few months now, but i guess that's beside the point.
then my mum walked in, starts with the patronizing, then having another tone as though i was 5 because i said i wasnt hungry.
she knows i dont eat much when its warm... ugh.
anyway.
that meal tonight, stupid family meal.
grandads gonna be there.
i'm scared.
but like my best friend said, theres no point stressing over something you can't change.
just urgh atm. i think i'm slowly coming back up again, thank God.
although i think i manged to hit all the low points i've been at when i started sinking.
didn't cut though, so its okay.
hopefully i'm getting better again, ignoring the tears.
they were probably because i'd felt like crying all day, nearly had more than enough times, but couldnt physically cry, as usual.
so yeah, this post was pretty pointless... but anyway.
i woke up this morning, my eyes were still watering, my face was wet, and my pillow had a patch on it... havent done that for a few months now, but i guess that's beside the point.
then my mum walked in, starts with the patronizing, then having another tone as though i was 5 because i said i wasnt hungry.
she knows i dont eat much when its warm... ugh.
anyway.
that meal tonight, stupid family meal.
grandads gonna be there.
i'm scared.
but like my best friend said, theres no point stressing over something you can't change.
just urgh atm. i think i'm slowly coming back up again, thank God.
although i think i manged to hit all the low points i've been at when i started sinking.
didn't cut though, so its okay.
hopefully i'm getting better again, ignoring the tears.
they were probably because i'd felt like crying all day, nearly had more than enough times, but couldnt physically cry, as usual.
so yeah, this post was pretty pointless... but anyway.