Will it go away?

[Dunce]

Hi, I've been depressed for about two years and I finally came to terms with and sorted out the thing that was depressing me about 2 months ago and I felt a whole lot better. But the next day I felt like I had gotten nowhere and I still felt depressed. Don't get me wrong, I'm better than I was but I feel like I'm walking around as a dead person. I feel so numb most of the time, when I say most of the time I mean the time I feel emotion is when I'm crying. When the depression was worse I never cried because I just never felt anything.

When I cry it's usually down to a small cause or I'm just feeling so worthless and unloved(believe me, unloved doesnt mean that feeling when none of my friends are texting me, like alot of my friends do think).

I never feel genuine joy, sure when I'm with my friends we laugh and I feel somewhat at ease, but it never lasts.

Since becoming depressed I've developed alot of phobias and anxiety. My memory is going and I have trouble sleeping(due to all of my fears...). I have no motivation and I worry all of the time.

Sometimes I have those amazing moments where I think 'yeah i'm going to beat this depression and be the happiest person alive!'. but it never lasts and I cant keep positive because being positive about my life is me lying to myself, I cant do it.

I'm only sixteen, will this go away if I get help or will this make me depressed my whole life? I know of adults who take meds for it, and I dont want to be one, I want a happy life, without drugs.

[1_21Guns]

there are alternative treatments to drugs, such as therapy and suchlike.
it will go away hun, you have to give it time, and i'm damn sure you have a whole happy life ahead of you.
16 years old with so much more to live for,
i understand more or less exactly how you feel,
i do the same thing. i just get tired of the false hope.
but it's not really false hun, it will get better, you just have to stick around to see it get better.
just remember you are moving on, and you are getting better.
send me a VM if you ever want to talk.

[Dunce]

Thanks (:

[1_21Guns]

welcome hun :)

[MyNameIsJack]

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[Dunce]

I don't do drugs, I just dont want to take anti-depressants.

[DragonflyBec]

Hey, I'm were you are now; however unlike you I have had Anti-depressants; same age as you, and I can tell you it's hard. Recently I have just come off them with some nasty side effects. However I can answer yes it does go away. you felt numb? Now just upset and teary? Embrace the tears, let 5-20 mins for teary moments however long you need. Tap into to how your feeling at the current stage. Accept that the issue is bothering you, breathe and evenly and think over how you can change the situation, come on here or chat to someone who can actively help you. The more you do this the more control you will gain over your mental state of mind. You will feel in control and the teary moment will soon die down, and you'll start to feel joy creep over you. The best possible thing is to have FAITH in yourself; believe in yourself it'll take time, and accept listening to your inner self. Don't consider drugs; they only hide your feelings, you won't be able to sort through your emotions when their hidden. If you need to talk to someone more personally i'll be here.

best wishes
xx

[Dunce]

Thanks Bec (:
But... I think I might be depressed because of the way I feel so numb and anxious, not the other way around. Sorry I didnt mention that earlier, it only really hit me today.

[DragonflyBec]

Ohhh okay sorry,

Well try and rub the numbness off! it'll go away :) Have faith and PM if u need

:)

x