georgiamay
June 19th, 2010, 05:42 AM
well, my best mate saw my cuts the other day, and promised she wouldn't tell anyone and asked me not to do it again, but in biology the other day, this girl i sit next to saw my cuts as well, and said, "omg do you self harm?" i started panicking and made up some crap excuse, and she said, "oh i bet" really sarcastically, and i had to really really try not to start crying, cause i was panicking so much. my teacher sent me outside to calm down, and my best mate came out with me, and she said, "you did it again didn't you?" and i said yes. then she said that i was clearly getting worse, and that she felt that she had to tell someone, cause she didn't want to watch me do this, and it was obvious i wasnt getting better, cause i kept telling her i'd stop if i didn't.
she said either i told my biology teacher after lesson, or she would. i didn't want to tell him, but i didn't want her to sit there talking to him about me, so i stayed behind as well, and she told him everything. he passed it on the one of the deputy heads, and told my parents. i'm now getting councelling at school, and she's referring me to this young people's councelling service in the town centre.
my dad was really upset about it, and he called my mum who came round, and i told them everything. i told them the truth, about how it's addictive. i said that the first time a relapsed i thought just one, just one to make me feel better and thats it, then it was just one more. one more. one more. my dad couldn't understand it, and i didn't expect him to, but my mum did. she said that when she was drinking, it was always 1 more then i'll stop, and then it was just one more. she understood. but now my dad is giving me regular "inspections" as he likes to call them. every now and then he'll make me show him my arms and legs so he can see if there are any new ones. not sure what to make of that, but atleast it'll stop me from doing it right?
i'm not sure what the point in this thread is. i guess i just wanted to tell you all so i could get it out of my system, and tell you that telling someone might seem like a bad idea, but it means you get helped a lot faster than if you go through it on your own.
she said either i told my biology teacher after lesson, or she would. i didn't want to tell him, but i didn't want her to sit there talking to him about me, so i stayed behind as well, and she told him everything. he passed it on the one of the deputy heads, and told my parents. i'm now getting councelling at school, and she's referring me to this young people's councelling service in the town centre.
my dad was really upset about it, and he called my mum who came round, and i told them everything. i told them the truth, about how it's addictive. i said that the first time a relapsed i thought just one, just one to make me feel better and thats it, then it was just one more. one more. one more. my dad couldn't understand it, and i didn't expect him to, but my mum did. she said that when she was drinking, it was always 1 more then i'll stop, and then it was just one more. she understood. but now my dad is giving me regular "inspections" as he likes to call them. every now and then he'll make me show him my arms and legs so he can see if there are any new ones. not sure what to make of that, but atleast it'll stop me from doing it right?
i'm not sure what the point in this thread is. i guess i just wanted to tell you all so i could get it out of my system, and tell you that telling someone might seem like a bad idea, but it means you get helped a lot faster than if you go through it on your own.