Reality...

[DismaliciouSx]

on my outside i pretend i'm strong and can just take everything people throw at me, but on the inside its killing me slowly i just wish one of my few friends would actually stop me and look me in the eyes and say "Whats Wrong?"

Also To Add To That I'm A 16 Year Old Guy And I've Been Crying A Lot Lately, What's Your Guys Take On That?

[Kaius]

Sometimes, when you look like you have a strong personality people seem to forget that you're capable of getting upset sometimes and need some help. So the logical excuse is "Oh, he can look after himself". When really that isn't the case at all. Sometimes though, it might make it easier if you ask to speak to the friend you trust most about what's going on at the moment. Because as soon as you make it known chances are they'll start noticing a bit more. As for the crying, don't worry about it. We all cry at some point, especially when things start getting complicated and difficult. People have different triggers, what may make one person cry, might not make someone else cry. We're all different but the one similarity we'll always have is that all guys cry at some point, even if it takes a lot, or a little to trigger it.

[DismaliciouSx]

Thank You So Much But What If I'm Not That Close To My "Friends"

[Kaius]

Is there anyone else you could talk to? I know there are plenty of people on here including myself that would be willing to listen and talk things through with you.

[DismaliciouSx]

Well I Guess There Is My Mom Or My Sis, I'm Not That Close To My Dad

[CaliKid24]

I'd go with the sister.

[DismaliciouSx]

I'm Not Tying To Be Difficult And I Really Am Sorry If I Am But I'd Prefer To Talk With Someone More Around My Age And A Guy, I'm Not Really Sure Why, I Guess Maybe Cause He Could Relate More

[CaliKid24]

There's a lot of guys ur age on here that are willing to help(including me).

[DismaliciouSx]

Well On Account I Keep F'ing Things Up With My Friends, I'll Start Talking To More People On Here

[CaliKid24]

Yea everyone on here is really cool and helpful. And just PM me if u need anything or leave me a visitor message.

[DismaliciouSx]

I'm Really Thinking I Should Try And Talk To Some Of My Old Friends, Maybe See Why They Just Dropped Contact With Me. Just A Few Problems With That Though 1.) I Don't Know If They Would Want To Talk 2.) I'm Scared (god i'm such a pussy)

[CaliKid24]

No ur not. Everyones scared. But look if ur friends don't wana talk to u then at least u know. But I say talk to them about it because later on u may wonder about what might have happend. If they are real friends than they will listen to u.

[DismaliciouSx]

Thank You So Much For The Advice, You Have Helped A Lot. I'll Definately pm You If I Need Anything

[CaliKid24]

No problem. I've had the same problems so yea if anything comes up than yea just ask me.

[DrkZ90]

on my outside i pretend i'm strong and can just take everything people throw at me, but on the inside its killing me slowly i just wish one of my few friends would actually stop me and look me in the eyes and say "Whats Wrong?"

Also To Add To That I'm A 16 Year Old Guy And I've Been Crying A Lot Lately, What's Your Guys Take On That?

I really know what you mean, because is exactly what I've been going through for the last 5 years or something... and personally, I'm just tired of wearing a fake smile all the time...

It's OK to cry, there's nothing inherently wrong with it. I also cry lot, and although I wish I didn't, I would be far worse than I already am if I didn't have at least that to let some steam off, so don't worry about crying.

If your friends cared enough to ask, would you be truthful with them? I ask because this week, a guy (the one I consider closest to a real friend I have) asked me 3 times on different days if I was sad, what was wrong... but given all that had been going on, I couldn't tell him everything... years of being in a "shell" and putting out a fake smile for the world to see, is hard when someone sees through that, and you should be ready for that.

Also, as others said, I'm too here if you want to talk.

Hope I've helped even if just a bit.

[DismaliciouSx]

I'm sure i could be honest but i don't know if they would care or just fake listen, know what i mean?

[DrkZ90]

yeah I know exactly what you mean, but as I see it is this: nobody would take the time (And the awkwardness) to ask you if anything is wrong if they don't mean it, right?

[DismaliciouSx]

Good Point, Then Again You Never Know In This World

[DrkZ90]

Well, they are at least, the closest you have to a friend (physically) near you, right? so you would've to at least give 'em a chance, right?

[DismaliciouSx]

Hey Thanks For All The Help Guys. I Have Decided That It's Time To Fight For Whats Mine And Not Let This BS Get Me Down.

[Ryhanna]

That's right!
Keeo your head up man, we're all here for you when you need us.
<3

[DismaliciouSx]

Well All Was Going Good But Today I Was Actually Gonna Try And Talk To My Mom About This Stuff And Then She Started Yelling At Me For Stuff I Didn't Do. But i Am Getting A Punching Bag Soon So Maybe That'll Help