For the first time...

[Aceso]

For the first time I thought I was going to die yesterday...
We had a car crash. Itwasnt deliberate but im suffering from whiplash and concussion. Like I say, it was pure accident but as I saw the car coming instead of fear I felt hope. It was the perfect way, the perfect oppertunity to die without suicide, not to have suspicions from people...a tragic accident. The sad thing was I was hoping to have a serious one. One that would end me up in hospital, maybe die...But it diddnt...I feel so empty again now, I wish I could replay that, so I diddnt see the car, so I diddnt scream, so mum diddnt put on the breaks. But I did scream...and still, here I am... :(

[DrkZ90]

I'm sorry about how you are feeling...

But think about it in this way, if you hadn't screamed, your mom would more than likely be dead too... you not only saved your life, you saved her life too.

Besides, the fact that you screamed when you saw it, it shows you that, somewhere deep inside, you want to live.

[DismaliciouSx]

oh my god screw my problems.
and as drkz90 said the fact you screamed shows that you still want to live

im still new here but pm me anytime if ya want

[Mike321]

Sorry to hear about your accident, hope you and your mom are okay
As the others have said, you not only saved your life but your moms too
Even though it didnt feel like it, you didnt want to die as you screamed, death is never the answer, you cant reverse it.
PM me if you want to talk

[Aspiringanonymous]

Reading your post is very thought-provoking to me, as there was a similar experience in my life many years ago - one that, in some absurd metaphysical twist, ended up opening the door to a renewed sense of hope and comfort amidst the darkness. It was a powerful moment for sure, and that which ultimately came of it impacted me deeply for a long time - in a positive way.

They say that it is in encounters with Death, that one becomes fully awakened to the Life within them.

It is luring to replay the fantasy in your mind, I know, but there is no need. It is the past now, regardless of how you feel about it.

You know I am always here for you. :hug3: