Confusion, Confusion.

[AussieRules]

Hey,

Im a recently turned 15 year old guy. Im confused about my sexuality. Its taking over my life. First of all, right up till my confusuion. I have always liked girls. When i hit teen's all i did was constantly think about sex with girls over and over. I started masturbating at the end of last year. Thought it was awesome. Got up to nearly 3 times a day. I just couldnt stop thinking about it. I had a girlfriend last year who i was so obbsesed with, we said we were going to have sex soon when the next year came around. She dumped me. I was heartbroken and i still think i am. I miss her, so much. She has had like 3 boyfriends after me untill know. People bagged me about. I miss her. Anyway About a few weeks ago, i woke up one day and was thinking holy shit what if im gay! I couldnt get it out of my head. I started masturbating to a magizine and all these gay thoughts came into my head so i stoped. I think their so disgusting! No offence it just scared the shit out of me. I find them disgusting. Then when i was around girls. I was a little bit better, checking out there breast, bum etc. And felt more secure. Its just when im alone with my thoughts i doubt my sexuality. And these thoughts just keep coming back tourmenting me. Making me want to hurt myself. Because whenever im around girls talking to them it goes away. but then when im alone its just. I just want thinks to be abck to normal. Its been going on for 4 weeks now. Havent been going to school incase these thoughts cameback. Because i go to an all boys school. Please help me. MAKE THESE THOUGHTS GO AWAY.!!

Ps: I was at a party 2 days ago and this girl touched me on the thigh, i got an erection straight away. And i think some guys are good looking. and it brings all these thoughts back, creating anxiety. I just wish i wasnt alive sometimes... Please help me, i beg of you.

Tom

[Lovely Fox]

It's ok the be questioning. I am. A lot. You just have to think about it. Don't be afriad of it. It's perfectly natural.

[Captor K]

In my opinion, you are straight. It's not unusual for straight guys to have homoerotic thoughts and fantasies. I think you're jumping the gun just a bit. Unless you start having romantic and sexual feelings for a guy, you're not gay.

Besides, you're fifteen. You're horny and hormones are shooting over the place like ballistic missiles. So just relax. Let the pieces fall where they may. I'm a few years older than you, and I can tell you sexuality extremely complex. Don't obsess over it. Whatever gets you off, gets you off, and there is nothing at all wrong with that.

[Scarface]

Well, I can't personally tell you what sexuality you are. You have to discover that for yourself, but if you so happen to like boys and girls, that's okay too. Don't beat yourself up over it. A lot of people have thoughts about the same sex. I'm gay myself, but if it's that revolting to you, you don't have to act on those feelings.

You said you are fifteen, at this age you have a lot of hormones racing through your body with feelings and emotions that you just can't seem to figure out. You don't have to rush and find out your sexuality right now. You can discover it as you get older and try new things.

Finding out your sexuality can be confusing and frustrating at times, but you will discover yourself whether you like girls, boys or both. Just don't beat yourself up over it because you should accept yourself whatever you maybe.

If you ever need someone to talk to I'm always here shoot me a VM anytime.

[zcornett]

Okay, first calm down and breathe. You are a teenage guy, curiosity and hormones are controling our bodies. Its normal to question your sexuality during teen age years. If you have any questions or just want to talk or need advice, PM me. I'm always ready to talk about anything

[jesusfreak77]

Hey man, i would just dont worry about it so much:) I mean u like girls? Do u see yourself marrying a woman, and having childeren?? then i think ur completly straight. If u were gay, u would want an emotional as well as sexual connection with another guy. Thats what i think. And plus ur 15! i go through the same things sometimes..and i just say: "no thats not who i am, and its not gonna b" But quite honestly..idthink ur gay:)

[AussieRules]

I dont have emotional connections with guys. I talk to girls. Masturbate over girls. When i go out im looking to impress the girls. not guys. I see myself having wife and kids. Been a coach of a little league team. If i was gay, none of these would happen right?

[jesusfreak77]

Ok so why r u worrying:) i kno wat u mean..its really overwhelming..but all i can say is, is just b secure in who u are..it helps when i think about the unconditional love that the Lord has shown me over again, and i kno that he'll love u even if u do have those thoughts and feelings...plus, God created us(escpecially men) to be sexual beings:) I hope that helps! (sorry if i made u uncomfortable in any way) O and yes!

[AussieRules]

I have those thoughts and feelings, because my mind is weak i think. It just wants to show it to me. Just for a little bit.Then im like Yuck thats digusting. trust me i mean that. Its just wrong and i would never do that. I would actually rather die.