Addicted to self harming DX

[starrburst]

Hey!
I have been through alot, my past haunts me. It doesn't help that when i was about 9 my cousin (Who i had not yet met...) killed himself. And, in March..my friend did also. So I have always being around things like this.

Last year I started to be unable to control my deep depression that was killing me on the inside, no one knew about it. I don't tell people much, I am pretty quiet and prefer to keep my feelings to myself. So, I started cutting...and I tried to stop previously...it failed, lol. And now, I just can't stop getting the urge to cut, Like yesterday...I cut OVER 27 times....and I didn't even feel that bad...

I have been advised to tell my parents, and to ask to see a specalist. But,I would rather die than go through telling them! So, I guess i'm not looking to stop,yet, just advice on dealing with depression, reducing the amounts of cuts I do, and also, how do you like to self harm?


Starr xD

[HeroesAndCons]

i hope u do feel better starr
i am a SH er too and its hard to leap over the addiction
i am addicted and relapsed alot
and u should try to stop
do tips such as
-wait for the cut (meaning i wait so long i forget to do it then i end up doing it sometimes)
-snap a rubber band on wrists
or my special trick
get an inkpad (red) and a razorblade and paper and dip the sharp end into the inkpad and put the paper on a rug and rip away
i hope those tips help
but if u ever wana talk pm me

[Mike321]

Sorry to hear what you have been through, if you dont want to tell your parents maybe you could talk to a specialist, they will really help you on trying to stop but, if your not ready to stop, some the suggestions 'Ichigo' made are good and will hopeully help you to reduce the number of cuts you do
PM me any time

[natt]

i found i waas like that, hiding everything and didnt want to tell anyone because it was me, too personal for anyone, and i didn't need an excuse for somebody to hurt me or leave me yet again. i had a really bad past and i don't think i learned how to properly cope by not talking to anyone, which led to my break down where everything came out. its not a good thing but it was out.

i find talking to somebody helps a lot and i was a non believer at first. i go to my counciller and tell her my feelings in my sessions and it helps me realise how angry i was and how upset i was because i was scared to admit that somebody else could effect me.

if your not ready to talk to someone yet start off by writing a diary everynight with what you felt in that day, that helps me a bit to with saying things im too scared to tell anyone

youv'e always got us to talk to on here :)
we understand and care! :)
take care x

[starrburst]

Yeah...

This girl who also (Not sure if she still does acturally...) used to self harm and come to me for advice. Well I fell out with her a few weeks ago, I threatened to kill her (In...a worse...more disturbed way...:whoops:) and nearly got excluded...(I still might be...if I do one more thing...:() I didn't tell my parents about that either :whoops: Yeah, I decided to befriend her to get advice...so...I told one of my other friends and apparently she wants to be friends with me, but is scared of my other friend who was kinda blamed for something I did...:what: Not sure why, or even how....

But I think with her help it's going to be easier...hopefully

No cuts YET today...lol....just hating my scars right now, and my arm is hurting like mad! LOL :D

[xgeekyrocksx]

What you've been through sounds like hell, but you have managed to be brave so far.. so well done :) xx well done for at least trying to cut less x
and if i read correctly you want to be friends wth the girl?
go for it, nothing to lose right! :) xx hope your going to be alright and will manage

[starrburst]

Yeah, thanks :)
I didn't cut yesterday! Yey!

[HeroesAndCons]

Good that u didnt cut
one step to being cured

[Secret_Keiko]

I'm so glad you didn't cut today! :)
Try and see how long you can go without it! ^^
If you get the urge again, distract yourself by talking to your friends on a totally different subject, or arrange to meet them and just hang out :)
Or listen to music and write down how you feel on the paper, like why you've got the urges, what you want to do to your body etc.
I've found that venting it all out has helped a lot and took the actual urges away :)
Good luck <3

[Sith Lord 13]

Yeah, thanks :)
I didn't cut yesterday! Yey!

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."

[Mike321]

Well done for not sutting and resisting the urges
Keep it up, this is the first step

[starrburst]

Hahaha...I failed again....5 cuts today so far....Ahh well...it's not THAT bad >.<

I'm okay with that, just not as happy as I was yesterday about not cutting at all =)

[Mike321]

Dont worry, we've all done it, just a little set back
I'm sure you'll overcome it and keep moving forward :)

[MadManWithaBox]

Well congratulations, one day is a day in the right direction. You take the buzz you felt on that day, and carry it through to the next day. And the next. And the next. You talk, you vent, you moan, you scream.*Not in that order necessarily :D

[starrburst]

Yep. though it was 17 yesterday...and i did use a razor blade too, so they were deeper....


I might just make 1 big cut then leave it for the day, might end up in er but that's a risk i usally take...

Anyone here know where places that are worst for pain,or/and blood are?