i.. i'm scared..

[1_21Guns]

i'm snapping again.
my family like exploded last night.
so i was more stressed than usual today.
and some guys were winding me up at lunch, poking me in my side and stuff,
i ignored it for a while, but me being me, it became too much, and i turned around practically screaming at them.
then nearly broke into tears over it.
i havent been like this for just less than a year.
i forgot how much it scares me when i'm like this.
i dont know what i'm saying, until i've said it.
and by then its too late.
everyone just seems to be pushing me that little bit too far when i dont need it... as usual.
i just argh. i hate this. i hate being like this.
its like i suddenly have no control over my body, or my mind.
it scares me half to death, i lashed out too, at one of them.
slapped him.
i just dont want to be that person again.
it feels like everythings undone itself.
argh.

[nick]

I have no answers to that, but if you need an ear, someone to just rant to, I can listen for England.

[Mike321]

Your under alot of pressure and it all builds up when people push you too far, thats understandable.
I dont really know what else to say, apart from we are all here for you, as you know.
Feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to

[Sith Lord 13]

Nat,

There are no simple answers to this situation. I know what it's like to live in fear of your own mind. To fear you're loosing control. I know how scary it is. Unfortunately, there's nothing you can do other than fight each and every day. I wish I could give you better advice, tell you if you do x, y, and z, you'd be fine. But there is no easy fix. Just remember, you have all of us here at VT to support you.

[HellHound]

You are a great person.I dont really like mods,lol :D but i think youv become like this because of deppresion.Been here trust me but i just accepted this shithole world the way it is and change it my way.im in control.Try starting again and you'll see you get yourself back :)

[1_21Guns]

thankss :)

[HellHound]

no prob