fuck it, i want to die.

[1_21Guns]

a week and a bit of shit has hit me,
and frankly i want to die.
this was the last straw.
i cant take it anymore.
i want to die.
but i cant, because as always someone needs me.
so yet again i have to suffer.
i'm no victim, but i'm no criminal.
accuse me of what you like.
i have enough atm, without you deciding im bitch of the fucking year again.
yeah i get it, im a horrible person.
i'd go die just to make you feel a bit better, but i cant,
so dont worry, i'm as dissapointed as you.
so yeah, im suicidal and shaking.
and i cant even act upon it.
painkillers are staring at me, and i cant do anything.
so yeah. death? cant die.
live? cant be arsed anymore.
so i cant really win.
so yeah. your happy, so please, move on.
bcos whatever im "doing".
its not fucking deliberate.
so whatever, bcos seriously.
cba.

[Wtficus]

okay, i've been seeing a lot of posts about you complaining about your life, seriously, it could be worse, yet I haven't really seen you tell us what's wrong with your life, being all depressed and shit won't make life better. I know that seems kind of rude but it's the truth, i don't know what were supposed to do if you're just going to act like this and don't even take anything optimisticly.

[1_21Guns]

okay, i've been seeing a lot of posts about you complaining about your life, seriously, it could be worse, yet I haven't really seen you tell us what's wrong with your life, being all depressed and shit won't make life better. I know that seems kind of rude but it's the truth, i don't know what were supposed to do if you're just going to act like this and don't even take anything optimisticly.

i was more venting, then asking for help, which is generally why none of my posts really had anything to answer.
i wasnt expecting replies, i just needed somewhere to let go.
i know what your saying, im just not much of a talker anymore, i dont share whats wrong, and that, in its fault is my own.
its hard to take much optomistically anymore, but i do sometimes, its just when i post on here im generally at my worst, so it seems like im just a mess, that i just want nothing more than this.
sorry you took the time to read something you could do nothing to aid.

[Sith Lord 13]

:hug:

Nat,

You need to let it out. What's hit you? You need to find someone to confide in. You can't do this on your own. No man is an island. Trust me, I've tried. You can't make it on your own. You need to let someone in.

[ackmedsgirl666]

heyy
have you tried going to a counceller or a guidance counciller at your school( highschools will usually have one)
i know how you feel, i have experienced what it sounds like you are going through in the past, it alright girl you will pull through.
i hope i have been of some help. if you want feel free to pm me

[Eskimo]

You know, its good to vent, but its better to tell people who can help you.
I mean, we're here to help.

[1_21Guns]

:hug:

Nat,

You need to let it out. What's hit you? You need to find someone to confide in. You can't do this on your own. No man is an island. Trust me, I've tried. You can't make it on your own. You need to let someone in.

thanks, yeah i was telling a few people last night, but i still had to have this rant and i dont really know why...

heyy
have you tried going to a counceller or a guidance counciller at your school( highschools will usually have one)
i know how you feel, i have experienced what it sounds like you are going through in the past, it alright girl you will pull through.
i hope i have been of some help. if you want feel free to pm me

thank you, and there isnt one at my school, best thing at our school is the peer mentors, which funnily enough im one of them, and the rest are my friends so i couldnt go there.

You know, its good to vent, but its better to tell people who can help you.
I mean, we're here to help.

i know, thank you.

[Sith Lord 13]

thanks, yeah i was telling a few people last night, but i still had to have this rant and i dont really know why...

The why doesn't matter. You want to rant, rant. We'll be here for you.

[Mike321]

Its good to rant, lets some of your emotion out.
As Alex said you cant do this on your own, I know its not easy but maybe just letting one person know how your feeling can really help
Feel free to PM if you ever want to talk

[Kaya]

Its good to just let things go. Keep your head up high. PM me anytime.