Cutting-Blood-Pain-Control-HELP

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

Ive cutted since i was 15, at least, at least for two years. Ive cut until my arm is deep deep red, until when it starts to heal, the slightest touch is the most painful. I cut to over power emotional pain, i cut for power-control, something ive lacked my whole life. To know what pain im feeling is real. My teacher found out and my parents took my blades, i snuck them,i got caught, i snuck them again got caught again, some more times and is tuck agin havent got caught, although i have fresh scars from today. the deepest cut ive done is at least an inch and a half, the lightest is grinding the surface until tear-drop blood drops bubble out.My arm has been so bad when i take a shower, my arm starts bleeding again. I got s shot a while back bcs i cut, i didnt mind it, infact i wanted the nurse to grind it across my skin so my arm would flood with fresh deep red blood.

I need help. Ive tried ice cubes with red dye, rubber bands, scraping pencil against paper, nothing works as well as a blade slicing into my young skin. Help?? Anyone?? I even use pushpins and toothpicks, anyways, hope to hear from anyone soon

[NightFighter]

I would suggest you throw away any tools that you use. However, going cold turkey is not always long lasting. So, this is my suggestion -
1. Throw away many of the tools you use but maybe keep one in an area of your room which is not easy to get to or in a place you go to get stuff frequently.
2. Secondly, you need to cut down as much as possible. Before you rush to cut, stop, take deep breaths, and then decide whether you will or not. If the reason will be forgotten in a few days time - don't bother. As you cut down (hopefully) you will deal with those situations without even thinking about the blade.
3. Resist the urges. They will pass and you will become stronger. Find things to do to distract yourself from them e.g movie, walk, swim etc. The more you resist the easier it will get next time.
4. Look at your scars - do you really want more or them for the rest of your life? Do you want to be judged because of them? Do you want more reminders of your mistakes?
5. Keep going. The worst thing you can do is give in and stop quiting. You need to move on with your life and be strong for yourself. You will find happiness when you quit.

This is certainly not an easy thing to do but i think you show signs of genuinely wanting to stop self injury. As long as you do, you will eventually quit.
I believe you will.

Good luck and take care,
x

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

thanks :) thats does sound hopeful to me i will try that

[HeroesAndCons]

if u ever need help PM me :hug:

[georgiamay]

mmm...maybe blowing up some balloons and popping them? sounds silly, but it sometimes works for me :) maybe write down exactly how you feel and then rip the paper up into the tiniest little pieces?

anyway, if you ever need someone to talk to, i'm always here :) x