Druane
June 7th, 2010, 11:27 PM
Things have been getting worse and worse for me. i have two verbally abusive brothers, who won't let up on me no matter what I do to try to make it better. i feel like I won't ever be good enough for them.
And then there's my friend. I think he's really awesome to hang out with, and most the time he really is awesome, and cool, and nice, and whatever else you want to say about him. But he's really conceited. He always puts me down whenever I try to say something about myself, and he always compliments himself, making me feel worthless.
I'm going to play high school soccer. but I feel like i won't be good enough. I feel like I will fail miserably, embarrass myself in front of the entire team. I wouldn't even play if it weren't for the fact that not playing a sport or keeping up the family name would make me feel worse, and would make my brothers and my dad disappointed in me.
My mom is really bad too. My dad never listens to her, and is always treating her badly. She has confided in me that she has been on the verge of committing suicide many times. And that just makes me feel even worse because the fact my dad is mean ot her is because of us children. he listens to us and does what we want more than her. I try to help her by asking him to listen to her, but i never get the courage because I'm afraid he'll get angry at me. :(
And then there's my friend. I think he's really awesome to hang out with, and most the time he really is awesome, and cool, and nice, and whatever else you want to say about him. But he's really conceited. He always puts me down whenever I try to say something about myself, and he always compliments himself, making me feel worthless.
I'm going to play high school soccer. but I feel like i won't be good enough. I feel like I will fail miserably, embarrass myself in front of the entire team. I wouldn't even play if it weren't for the fact that not playing a sport or keeping up the family name would make me feel worse, and would make my brothers and my dad disappointed in me.
My mom is really bad too. My dad never listens to her, and is always treating her badly. She has confided in me that she has been on the verge of committing suicide many times. And that just makes me feel even worse because the fact my dad is mean ot her is because of us children. he listens to us and does what we want more than her. I try to help her by asking him to listen to her, but i never get the courage because I'm afraid he'll get angry at me. :(