LiTTleBrok3nDolly
June 7th, 2010, 09:00 PM
Okay so i have these "obsessions" or "compulsions" i dont really know what, im not diagnosed with it, but may i might[U] have it?
1) washing my hands for 15 min and washing my fingers separately
2)ive stopped myself (hard to though [I]very[I] hard) from closing doors, if a door is slightly open i open it wide and close it and if it was already closed i would re-close it
3) wash down my computer, mouse, tv, lamp, dresser, desk , and accessories aka cellphone, fish takn (outside) picture holder, mouse pad any cleanable spot at least 5 times
4) i NEED to have my pillows set a certain way on my bed, perfectly even, blanket at foot neatly folded, no wrinkles, no side longer than the other, no cat hairs
5) ive stopped, [I]it was very hard but i stopped taking showers two times a day, i never thought my hair was clean enough for a day so i would take a shower in the morning, and then at night
6) my room make me claustrophobic so i stay out as much as possible, which makes crud build up and messy, i ignore it cause its overwhelming and to much to think about although it NEEDS to be clean, when i start to clean i get migraines, panic attacks, and get dizzy and emotionally torn down.
7) (sorta ties with 4) i NEED accessories for my bed, i have to many pillows and blankets i dont use, but i put them...on my bed...but then i have to many but then i need them to be on my bed cause theyre mine and i like them, so i start to get a migraine (again), lets just say its stupid of me
8)the fridge is not exactly organized, although i dont wanna stress out my parents by making everything in order, i try not to look inside it or the freezer. Should i go ahead and organize it and disinfect it 5 times? Or leave it be and just not look at it?
9) whenever i watch a movie i have to watch it a certain number of times, and i ALWAYS get involved in it and i never notice it, like the new movie Alice in Wonderland, i watched it four times the night i got it and i was obsessed with it, i had to think about it for a week, and pretend i was in wonderland and that everything that was happening wasnt real, i even have the disney wonderland bag on my wall as a "poster"
so ill stop there but i try sooooooooooooooo hard to stop all of it and i tend to fail, do i have OCD? or just symptons of it? if i did have it, what would be worse for me to have it? pls help!!
1) washing my hands for 15 min and washing my fingers separately
2)ive stopped myself (hard to though [I]very[I] hard) from closing doors, if a door is slightly open i open it wide and close it and if it was already closed i would re-close it
3) wash down my computer, mouse, tv, lamp, dresser, desk , and accessories aka cellphone, fish takn (outside) picture holder, mouse pad any cleanable spot at least 5 times
4) i NEED to have my pillows set a certain way on my bed, perfectly even, blanket at foot neatly folded, no wrinkles, no side longer than the other, no cat hairs
5) ive stopped, [I]it was very hard but i stopped taking showers two times a day, i never thought my hair was clean enough for a day so i would take a shower in the morning, and then at night
6) my room make me claustrophobic so i stay out as much as possible, which makes crud build up and messy, i ignore it cause its overwhelming and to much to think about although it NEEDS to be clean, when i start to clean i get migraines, panic attacks, and get dizzy and emotionally torn down.
7) (sorta ties with 4) i NEED accessories for my bed, i have to many pillows and blankets i dont use, but i put them...on my bed...but then i have to many but then i need them to be on my bed cause theyre mine and i like them, so i start to get a migraine (again), lets just say its stupid of me
8)the fridge is not exactly organized, although i dont wanna stress out my parents by making everything in order, i try not to look inside it or the freezer. Should i go ahead and organize it and disinfect it 5 times? Or leave it be and just not look at it?
9) whenever i watch a movie i have to watch it a certain number of times, and i ALWAYS get involved in it and i never notice it, like the new movie Alice in Wonderland, i watched it four times the night i got it and i was obsessed with it, i had to think about it for a week, and pretend i was in wonderland and that everything that was happening wasnt real, i even have the disney wonderland bag on my wall as a "poster"
so ill stop there but i try sooooooooooooooo hard to stop all of it and i tend to fail, do i have OCD? or just symptons of it? if i did have it, what would be worse for me to have it? pls help!!