Uh. Urges. Urges. Urges.

[1_21Guns]

They're stronger than usual tonight. Its pretty much at the strength i usually give in at, but im not going to. I cant.
I guess im just not used to them, to say i havent stopped for longer than 49 days, i dont get urges too much unless something turns to shit...
Im not giving in, theres no point and it will change nothing.
They're just so strong its ugh...

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Im not giving in, theres no point and it will change nothing.
They're just so strong its ugh...

Nat youre right your stronger then that, i love you hun ill always be here for you. Damn it nat if your not strong enough to beat this ill eat my hat. :hug:

Hun you give me hope and you show me that your so brave but that you need help and im asking you nat hun please break down the barriers and let me in because hun you really arent alone

[Sith Lord 13]

:hug:

You can do it Natalie. Your urges come from inside you, so, by definition, you as the whole are greater than your urges, that are only a part of you. It's a struggle, yes, but you can do it.

[1_21Guns]

Nat youre right your stronger then that, i love you hun ill always be here for you. Damn it nat if your not strong enough to beat this ill eat my hat. :hug:

Hun you give me hope and you show me that your so brave but that you need help and im asking you nat hun please break down the barriers and let me in because hun you really arent alone

I know im not alone, but i dont know how to let anyone in properly. I let them get so far then i close off. A lot of things i dont even post on here.
Id let you in if i could, but barriers ive had since i was little just never seeem to get close to breaking. Its like i need them there, like im dependant on hiding.
I love you too hun :hug:

[Obscene Eyedeas]

They're stronger than usual tonight. Its pretty much at the strength i usually give in at, but im not going to. I cant.
I guess im just not used to them, to say i havent stopped for longer than 49 days, i dont get urges too much unless something turns to shit...
Im not giving in, theres no point and it will change nothing.
They're just so strong its ugh...

I know im not alone, but i dont know how to let anyone in properly. I let them get so far then i close off. A lot of things i dont even post on here.
Id let you in if i could, but barriers ive had since i was little just never seeem to get close to breaking. Its like i need them there, like im dependant on hiding.
I love you too hun :hug:

Hun you can always count on me and we will work on this together i promise you that

[1_21Guns]

:hug:

You can do it Natalie. Your urges come from inside you, so, by definition, you as the whole are greater than your urges, that are only a part of you. It's a struggle, yes, but you can do it.

Hun you can always count on me and we will work on this together i promise you that

thanks guys. :hug: :heart:

[Mike321]

You can do it nat, you've already said yourself that theres no point and it wont change anything.
You need to keep fighting these urges, I know its hard, but I know you can do it
Dont give up
PM me if you want to talk
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