Mom

[Kaya]

ok....so my mom recently od 3 times after my brother died....she just ignores me and treats me like her servent. my stepdad doesnt care for me much either....he says he loves me, but he also told my mom im nothing to him but a pest. idk what to do...cuz my lil bro just died nd now my other bro is in the hospital..my sister is engaged nd leaving for college soon. we cant affored my house so i mite need to move into a new house, nd switch skools. to top that off, my cousin, uncle, nd gparents that live w/ me will have to find a new house.....that none of them can afford. rite now im alone because every1 in my house is gone....no1 bothered to call me today. i feel like nobody cares about me. wen i was younger i was molested by my real dad nd i feel like i want 2 meet him...he loved me wen i was younger, would he still love me now? i was going thru my moms stuff...she said me nd my sister r incompetant...it also talked about ways she could kill herself. i also found out she was cutting herself....so she can do it and i cant? i told her about me wanting a baby ....she doesnt even care. she just said she hopes i know wat im doing... she doesnt care if i get hurt, or if i cant support it...she cares more about how the baby turns out than if her own daughter is ok. figures. i wish i could just run away...or die or sumthing. plus, im hallucinating. a lot. since no1 is home..i cant take my meds. i ran out of them...so i cant fall asleep, i have nightmares, nd i keep seeing things nd hearing things that arent rly there. no1 is here to comfort me either...i was talking 2 my friend, but as usual-she had 2 go. im literally all alone now...except for my stupid dogs that keep fighting. nd the 1 keeps biting me. im freaking out nd im crying nd i wanna cut so badly but i cant because i dont wanna go back to the mental hospital...i was supposed 2 but i told mom i didnt want 2 nd of course she doesnt care if i get better or not. she didnt make me go. i was supposed 2 go 2day, actually...cuz i cut myself a few days ago...nd every1 keeps calling me emo nd im not even sure if i am...im confused on the whole meaning....can some1 just help me before i do sumthing stupid?




(sorry for the rant........i just need help)

[chrissm]

Well calm down a bit first off, if you can. Just read your other post about your brothers so know the background there. Your whole family will still be in shock and grief over Samuel, and so are you. You need to make some allowances under those circumstances. Your stepfathers remark "nothing but a pest", I bet every parent says that sometimes but that doesnt mean its what they honestly believe or that they dont love you. If your real father molested you in the past then going back to him would seem a bad move, he could take that as a sign that you didnt mind and are available for more of the same. So take a few deep breaths, watch some tv or something, and wait for your family to come back with hopefully some better news about William.

[Kaya]

Thank you

[jenyroger]

My mom is for me best friend . She always care for me very age .I am proud her she is angel to me . In my family she is also angel for every one .

[Kaya]

Mine isnt.