dreams...

[georgiamay]

well, i'm not sure if this goes here, but i suppose its a mental crisis so...

i keep having dreams of my mum drinking and the night she tried to kill herself. they just dont go away. i am convinced that i'm over it, i mean it doesn't affect me at all when i'm awake. it's just these dreams that really get to me. its like i'm reliving it all over again. i wake up and i feel really aweful for about 5 minutes. i mean, they're the times that i used to wake up and self harm, but thats another story.

i dont know what to do. i dont want to have them anymore. i'm over what happened, all i want to do is put it behind me, i just want to forget everything, and i do after i've been awake for about 5 minutes. but why do they allways come while i'm asleep? sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night after having it, and then i'm too scared to go back to sleep incase i have the same one, so i stay up the rest of the night reading (how pathetic :P).

how can i stop them? i still care about the things that heppen in the dream, like the time my mum drove me to school while she was drunk and the times she shouted at me and the night she attempted suicide, but i just dont want to keep reliving it every other night!! its over, and i want to stay over.

sorry for the rant, but i really dont know what to do :l

[smile]

Im sorry to hear what has been happening, it must of been hard for you :(.
Some people say that we dream to release repressed emotions, things we cannot express in everyday life so we leave it to let out during our dreams, some people believe that dreams provide an insight to our deepest thoughts and emotions. Obviously im not an expert, but maybe although you think you have dealt with what your mum did, you haven't? Sorry im not much help, but maybe you need to reasess how much you really have gotten over it?

Is there anybody you can talk to in person about these dreams? Or a therapist or friend you can trust? It might help to talk through how you are feeling? Maybe for it really to be over, you need to deal with the situation efficiently and not repress how you are feeling, even thought it may be hard, it would benefit in the long-run? :)

Sorry this isn't much help...im always here if you wanna talk, PM me anytime, everyome on VT gives you support. Take care and stay safe x

[starrburst]

I'm very sorry to hear about that, it must be tough for you. Keep strong, think of the good things in life.

You could try talking to someone about it, maybe a specialist?

You should take a nice warm relaxing bath before going to bed, try to relax as much as you can. Drink some herbal tea :)

Try not to think about it either, try to distract yourself.

[Vacuola]

The human mind is one of the biggest mysteries in biology. It gives significance to some moments of our life. And we can't control that. For some reason, your mind keeps in your unconscious the sad memories of what happened. And I believe that your dreams are saying to you that you really haven't overcome those difficult moments. Your conscious mind had just ignored them but they still there. I really recommend that you talk to someone that helps you overcoming these memories. I hope I could help a little! :)