3 years

[Gumleaf]

i remember it clearly. exactly 3 years ago, from the minute this has been posted. i was at my girlfriends place, it was a thursday afternoon on a terrible wet and cold day. i was having fun with my girlfriend when everything ame crashing down.

it's when the door opened at jess' place and dad came in. i remember looking at him and knowing something was terribly wrong. i remember panicing and jess holding my hand as jess' parents walked out of the room. then he told me what happened. "you're uncle called a little while ago. gran has died". i was shocked and didn't know what to do. i remember feeling empty and not being able to take in anything that was said. the next thing i know we are on the way to newcastle.

when we got to her unit i couldn't stand it. i went in with my parents and saw the body. i remember looking for a few seconds and then hiding in what was my gran's room in her unit and pretended to watch tv as i broke down completely. the happy memories of when i would spend fun times with my sister at my gran and pa's house came flooding back creating a lot of pain. i didn't come out until the body was taken away. the memories of that night brings chills down my spine.

i remember the happy memories of spending days at my gran and pa's place during holidays. and watching the home movies we made then, now makes me cry. why did you both have to go, why did you both have to leave me?

rip gran & pa, i miss you both so much and i feel so alone without you.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

SteSte your not alone you never will be. at the end of the day noone can replace your grandparents but you really do just have to remember the good times. you say it's her anniversary well why not do something to honour and remember her by because she wouldn't want you crying and depressed over her. she loved you very much hun and your pa did too and they would want you smiling and happy. noone can take away the pain of losing them Ste but we can be here for you and you can cry to me whenever you want im here with open arms for you stephen. i may not have all the magic words to take away the pain you feel but i will always do my best to try. im here for you Ste and so are many others. stay strong hun. im proud of how well your doing lately. :heart:

[Mike321]

Its never easy loosing a close family member (i lost my aunt to cancer 4 years ago), but your not and never will be alone feeling like this.
Try to focus on the good memories you have of her, and the good times you spent with her. Its impossible to take away the pain of loosing someone close to you, but it is possible to ease it, as the previous post suggest, maybe do something to honour her.
You know you've got us here if you need to talk

[Scarface]

Accepting the fact that your grandparents are gone is a VERY hard thing to overcome. I have lost my grandparents as well. It certainly hasn't been an easy road, but remember that you aren't alone. You always have people to talk to and just let your feelings out to. There are different stages of accepting death; denial, anger, grief and finally accepting it.

It was very hard for me because my grandma knew more about me then my parents do. I was her favorite and we used to have a lot of good times together. I have to keep those memories close to me even so after she died. Your grandparents wouldn't want you to feel sad, they would want you to be happy and to remember the good times.

Just keep the memorial at the back of your head because you can't forget, but you don't want to dwell on it. Always know that you have people that care and love you. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm always here PM/VM me anytime.