can't think..

[Asylum]

i keep crying.. things keep comin into my head that i don't want to remeber.. i keep trying to push them out, but i can't get distracted. this whole thing is distracting me from studying my 6 exams this week. :( there are too many different things that i'm thinking about to list here... i fee the need to push everyone away in my life... i'm afraid of hurting them and i'm afraid i'll get hurt myself... my emotiosn conflict because i dont' want to be around people, but i don't want to be alone.. i keep tryig to supress things... and it hurts.. everythign hurts... i'm so sickof feeling this way.. i keep thinking about what he said... everything it hurts.. i odn't know why.. i just want to stop thinking... but ican't :( i'll get really overly happy durig the day and hyper but once i start thinking.. or remeembring it goes downhill... i can't avoid these thougths.. i really can't... it just hurts too much.. i don't know what to do :( theres just too much stress... too much pain.. too much hurt.. i cn't cope

[Sith Lord 13]

Slow down. You can cope. Why don't you get it out? Talk about those things you keep remembering. It should help you deal with them.

[Asylum]

i'm tryig to but i can't... well one person... is hurtin me.. he has hurt me so many times... i realy don't want to go into details here about it.:/ so just rembering what he said... ad a whole bunch of oter things alone with him. another thing is i've been eating lately... and i hate myself for giving into hunger.. i feel so fat... 6 exams... i'm so stressed parnts put a lot of pressure on me, and i put a lot on myself... im crrently havig an anxiety attack.. hte few seniors i talked to at school just graduated.. :( parents hve been fighting a lot. my sister kept physicall beating me up tday. the three people i usuall call to dstract myself if i want to cut are all on vactions for a week... and well they are the only people i really talk to.. i talk to like a few othe girls at school casually.. we aren't that clse... but yea... i really hate myself... mom was right... it's m fault i have no friends... i do push everyoe away.. i deserve to be bullied.. i brought it upon myself.. my mother and the neighbors told me this.. and they are right...

[Sith Lord 13]

Then talk here. Vent here. Vent to us. You need to get it out.