What's going on here...

[screamtobeheard]

So...I've been eating as little as I can without being noticed and people forcing me to eat. But this is a new and exciting twist. I'm having urges to purge now. Which is weird because I find it disgusting and I don't like it. I don't know why, but it's kind of freaking me out.

[BeautifulDisaster]

Don't purge, you do NOT wanna go down that road.

[screamtobeheard]

I know. It's not something I really have a desire to do, it's just more of a compulsion.

[BeautifulDisaster]

You can fight compulsions.

[dbrkk]

Whatever you do, don't give into it. Cuz once you do it, it's a real challenge to stop. If you can keep from doing it, hopefully the thoughts will pass and you'll be able to make more rational decisions. Really, purging can mess you up BIG TIME.

[screamtobeheard]

I don't think I'm going to give into it. I don't really want to...

[bellais]

dont do it once you do you cant stop

[dbrkk]

I don't think I'm going to give into it. I don't really want to...

It's such a horrible thing if you think about it. I mean do YOU really want to spend your life sticking your fingers down your throat? It feels awful...And if that isn't enough, the shame you feel is absolutely unbearable. Not to mention all the long term effects, such as heart issues, a screwed up esophogus, and rotten teeth.

[screamtobeheard]

Yeah, I know. The consequences are absolutely awful. I think that's why I've been able to restrain myself. Thanks for all your input!