Doll
June 4th, 2010, 10:36 PM
So, I don't really know what I'm asking here. I guess just what should I do? Here's the situation:
My brother stole over a thousand dollars from my mom, so everyone's angry and we're broke for the month until she gets her next pay check, which still won't cover the debt so we won't be eating for a while. On top of that he spent it all on drugs, and got high tonight. He stole DJ's phone [DJ is a friend of our family that lives upstairs, since he'd be homeless otherwise and he's actually quite useful]. He threatened my mom, too, and went at my dad.
Then apparently my dad "physically abused" my mom. I didn't see it, but she said he was twisting her arm and shoving her and he pushed her onto the bed, and was "Begging her to hit him so that he could beat the crap out of her". I didn't see that part. So my mom calls me downstairs and tells me that she's leaving, she can't take it anymore because after four or five years of my brother doing this my dad still won't kick him out and she can't live like this. [That's true, by the way. He's done much worse, too. Sold her diamond earrings, stabbed me in the hand, he's tried to kill all of us, he slit open my hamster once.] So then he comes blubbering in the garage where dad, mom and I are all talking and throws his glass bong down on the floor and shatters it, so that everyone cuts their feet, and throws his $25 on the ground. What that had to do with anything, I don't know. I think this was about him giving part of his paycheck to my mom to pay back what he stole. So then I talk to my dad alone, cause my mom leaves, and apparently he "can't kick him out because he's family and that wouldn't solve anything and we don't have the money to send him anywhere and he can't join the military and we don't know what to do with him". My dad says my mom needs to grow up and my mom says my dad needs a reality check. They're both acting like ten year olds, in my opinion. And my brother's threatening to kill himself and everyone else, as usual. And he says he'll call the cops if nobody gives him his money back. Then he decides not to, since we point out that he's a minor and his parents can order a drug test and he'll be positive for who knows what, and that even if they can't keep him in jail they can hold him for two days for no reason. Then he storms out without his money, and I haven't seen him since. He left the house. So my mom's all, "I'm leaving tomorrow!" and DJ just went back to his room.
This was supposed to be a great summer- it started off that way. Last night after graduation we all got pizza and had a great time. A bunch of us [including my crush] went uptown today and went to the pool and stuff. Tomorrow Devin's having a bonfire [again, my crush] and I don't know if I can even go. I've been looking forward to it for weeks. I have my outfit planned and everything. All I really want is to have a normal summer and actually have fun. But I don't know if I can go, or if I'll even want to go. It's all pretty depressing. I've attempted suicide before, and I'm known to cut myself. So I don't really know how this will affect me yet. I was shaking a lot tonight, though. Not because it's cold. That's how I get when something really bothers me. My mom says I bottle things up, and that I never talk about my feelings and that's why I get so depressed. Well, she doesn't think I'm depressed at all. She thinks I want attention, really. My dad does too. He yells at me when I cut. My mom cries and asks me what she did wrong.
So... I just don't really know what to do. About my brother, my parents, my friends.... How I'll react to all of this....
Mind you, this happens at least twice a week. This kind of thing. My dad's never hurt my mom before, though. My brother does stupid stuff like this all the time.
So what do I do?
My brother stole over a thousand dollars from my mom, so everyone's angry and we're broke for the month until she gets her next pay check, which still won't cover the debt so we won't be eating for a while. On top of that he spent it all on drugs, and got high tonight. He stole DJ's phone [DJ is a friend of our family that lives upstairs, since he'd be homeless otherwise and he's actually quite useful]. He threatened my mom, too, and went at my dad.
Then apparently my dad "physically abused" my mom. I didn't see it, but she said he was twisting her arm and shoving her and he pushed her onto the bed, and was "Begging her to hit him so that he could beat the crap out of her". I didn't see that part. So my mom calls me downstairs and tells me that she's leaving, she can't take it anymore because after four or five years of my brother doing this my dad still won't kick him out and she can't live like this. [That's true, by the way. He's done much worse, too. Sold her diamond earrings, stabbed me in the hand, he's tried to kill all of us, he slit open my hamster once.] So then he comes blubbering in the garage where dad, mom and I are all talking and throws his glass bong down on the floor and shatters it, so that everyone cuts their feet, and throws his $25 on the ground. What that had to do with anything, I don't know. I think this was about him giving part of his paycheck to my mom to pay back what he stole. So then I talk to my dad alone, cause my mom leaves, and apparently he "can't kick him out because he's family and that wouldn't solve anything and we don't have the money to send him anywhere and he can't join the military and we don't know what to do with him". My dad says my mom needs to grow up and my mom says my dad needs a reality check. They're both acting like ten year olds, in my opinion. And my brother's threatening to kill himself and everyone else, as usual. And he says he'll call the cops if nobody gives him his money back. Then he decides not to, since we point out that he's a minor and his parents can order a drug test and he'll be positive for who knows what, and that even if they can't keep him in jail they can hold him for two days for no reason. Then he storms out without his money, and I haven't seen him since. He left the house. So my mom's all, "I'm leaving tomorrow!" and DJ just went back to his room.
This was supposed to be a great summer- it started off that way. Last night after graduation we all got pizza and had a great time. A bunch of us [including my crush] went uptown today and went to the pool and stuff. Tomorrow Devin's having a bonfire [again, my crush] and I don't know if I can even go. I've been looking forward to it for weeks. I have my outfit planned and everything. All I really want is to have a normal summer and actually have fun. But I don't know if I can go, or if I'll even want to go. It's all pretty depressing. I've attempted suicide before, and I'm known to cut myself. So I don't really know how this will affect me yet. I was shaking a lot tonight, though. Not because it's cold. That's how I get when something really bothers me. My mom says I bottle things up, and that I never talk about my feelings and that's why I get so depressed. Well, she doesn't think I'm depressed at all. She thinks I want attention, really. My dad does too. He yells at me when I cut. My mom cries and asks me what she did wrong.
So... I just don't really know what to do. About my brother, my parents, my friends.... How I'll react to all of this....
Mind you, this happens at least twice a week. This kind of thing. My dad's never hurt my mom before, though. My brother does stupid stuff like this all the time.
So what do I do?