i keep nearly running...

[1_21Guns]

everytime i'm outside. i want to run.
i'll walk my friend home.
i'll feel like running away.
run off into the moorland and never ever come back.
stay there till i die.
take my blade and kill myself.
just die in general.
it was too much anyway.
then i saw my dad.
ohai 293849025 feelings i dont need right now.
but i cant run.
i cant die.
but i dont want to live.
and i dont want to stay put.
seriously.
what the fuck?

[Scarface]

Running away is never a good thing. You will then be on the streets and that is one place that you never want to be. I know everything can just be too much to handle right now, but as long as you have a roof over your head food on the table and you get to connect with us. It might be a little better then it may seem right now.

Sometimes making a pros and cons list of things that you're grateful for and things that don't make it so easy. You have to try to keep a positive attitude even when you get into these funks. You just have so much on your mind along with ideas and feelings it's not easy.

Just step back breathe and adjust yourself. I hope things get better Natalie I'm always here if you ever need someone to talk to. :agent:

[1_21Guns]

thanks Ronnie.

[Sith Lord 13]

but i cant run.
i cant die.
but i dont want to live.
and i dont want to stay put.
seriously.
what the fuck?

You just described my life for the past few days. No will to live, but not ready to die either. Only thing I can think is to focus on the second part instead of the first. Sorry I can't be more help.