i tried to die

[ackmedsgirl666]

last night i was very stressed out.
i live in a group home and me and my next door roomate have a habit of talking to eachother through the walls at night. well yesterday we were making up from a fight we had but we got caught talking through the wall.
now im in my room away from her and on a schedule where i have to eat away from her and be with the rest of the housemates when shes in her room and vice versa for her.
well, one of the staff came into my room and started bitching at me and blaming all of her problems on me and she told me to stop harassing this girl because she does not to be influenced to be bi like me
the staff are not aware that me and her recently had a relationship together and that she is bi.
basically i was in alot of pain because of what the staff said and because they seperated me and this girl from one another.
i was so stressed out, sad, and depressed and alone and today is the last day that i see my councellor which made me feel even worse.
so i surrounded myself with pictures of my family and the other girl( pics from when we were dating that she had given me)
and I sliced my right wrist and swallowed rubbing alcohol because i thought that if i swallowed it it would kill me. well i was wrong. all it did was make me sick and cry more
i don't know what to do anymore. my life is too valuable to give up and i am scared of doing it again and i don't know what to do or who to talk to
what should i do?

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Hun suicide is never the answer and cutting isn't either. sometimes in life things and people are taken from us. you should try your best to get to see her even if it's not often but if you can't it's not worth cutting over. you said so yourself your life is too valuable to do this. look to the future hun i know it's not always easy at times but it is your future and you shouldn't cut it short. sometimes life separates us from those we care about and we cannot change that. you need to take a step back here hun and find someone to talk to. at the end of the day crying and venting are healthy and won't harm you and many here will offer you the support to do that. just don't self harm or commit suicide your better then that. send me a pm hun im here for you to talk to.
:hug:

[1_21Guns]

you've just said yourself hun, that your life is far to valuble to just throw away.
killing yourself isn't going to make what those horrible, clearly homophobic people not of said those horrible things.
and killing yourself is never the answer.
you've just said it scares you, and im saying this a lot lately,
but if it scares you that much, use the fear to your advantage.
you clearly don't want to die, and dying wont fix anything hun.
ive been there and tried to end it all, but its not worth it hun.
nothings worth your life.
can you not try and see your therapist again, or even find another, or just talk to anybody who'll listen, friends, family, even someone on here, just vent hun. it helps.
PM me if you want to talk, and good luck.

[BeautifulDisaster]

You really need to see a professional.
Preferably a psychologist.
Suicide is not the answer, & the body is very resilient, killing yourself is a lot harder than you think, chances of surviving are high, & if you do yourself damage, you DON'T want that to happen... trust me.

The effort you put into taking your life could be put into making your life better.