Why am I like this???

[nica]

well, i just want to have some advice from viewers out there...

you see, i really have this downward attitude towards myself...
anyhow, this school year i'll be entering my college life...
the fact that my friends do have boyfriends were really getting
on my nerves, to be honest i envy them..
i dunno why but i just want to have what they have,, that guy..

since highschool no one ever ask me out or something...
so i was freakishly asking myself why am i not attractive to them?
and i thought of my not so good figure and everything about me..
bringing me to the conclusion of me being ugly..

so i decided to stick in the fact..
yeah a lot of guys have loved me through text coz they havent
seen me and they love my personality.. i have boyfriends in text but it did not work quite well..
what i really want to have is that a boyfriend who could
court me personally like ask me out on a date in person not in text.,,

i'm really tired of seeing myself as ugly coz of not having
a real bf.. but whenever i thought of it i was never going to be better
like i was predicting to be single forever...


why am i like this? why do i think of stuffs like this??
can you give me some advice?

i'm really sad about this matter ;c

[rlb3810]

Well I am a guy and I feel the same way. But my second problem is that I can be a real asshole and I have just came up with the idea that I would rather have someone like me for who I am than for me pretending to be someone that I am not. I think that what I am trying to say is be yourself and do not try so hard.

[ILOVEYOU]

You Shouldnt give up, dont get disappointed in yourself, Everybody is pretty in their own way, trust me. and you're not the only one feeling like this, and its normal. See theres a good thing about your situation, you dont want random guys just asking you out for your looks, and stuff like that, you want a guy who trully wants you, you actually want a Lover, and Lovers Usually happen to be found very late or when you actually dont even expect it. so.. never give up, the time will come! its even better that you've not been with anybody yet, because now you're more intelligent and you have a better point of view, a more "Complete" one. so my advice would be to Wait, and dont think about it, be happy with life, and be prepared for someone asking you out. cuz if people see you're happy with yourself, with your life and things, they will get interested in you.. nobody wants a depressed Date or something..
Good Luck Nica! :)