i have this thing

[MadManWithaBox]

I need the scars. And i'm not sure why. the idea of digging the blade into my skin pleases, gives me a shiver of pleasure. and that scares me.I'm talking to myself, i hate being around people, i always need isolation, and the voice in my head is telling me thats cos they're better than me, and i don't deserve to be around, and as punishment I should go cut myself again. sorry for rant got it on my mind.

[HeroesAndCons]

dont be sorry for the rant
were all here for the same reason
yes all self harmers feel this way every once in a while
but for isolation
your not alone

[ExEmoBlood]

((forgive me if I sound stupid-- I've got a lot of things I have to do, and it's made me a bit tired. But I still intend to try and help))

I can't say much as far as the voices go, but I can say that the voices lie. So, I hope you don't believe them. If you can, push those voices out. Tell them that they're a bunch of bullshit. Who are theses voices that have this amazing power to judge what a person deserves or doesn't deserve, anyway? No-one has that much of a right. No-one.

Don't isolate yourself, bro. Even if you don't want to: get up and get out. Go hang out with friends. Trust me, it will do you some good. Otherwise you may end up sounding like my poem, Illness.
Want to read it and see what I mean? -> http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/blog.php?b=3610

[MadManWithaBox]

well i didn't believe them at first. but they keep coming back, no matter how hard I try. Bit hard not to be convinced their right.

[ExEmoBlood]

If you believe the voices, you'll never get past this; and you do want to get past this, correct?

Did you read my poem? Do you want to end up like that?

[1_21Guns]

I need the scars. And i'm not sure why. the idea of digging the blade into my skin pleases, gives me a shiver of pleasure. and that scares me.I'm talking to myself, i hate being around people, i always need isolation, and the voice in my head is telling me thats cos they're better than me, and i don't deserve to be around, and as punishment I should go cut myself again. sorry for rant got it on my mind.

you don't need those scars, they'll ruin your life if you let them get too far.
ofc it does, it's an adrenaline rush, it's danger. it's pleasure. it's an escape.
but those scars are worth none of that.
i'm the same as far as being around people goes. i enjoy my own company more than that of others, and i always have.
a lot of people talk to themselves.
at the end of the day your human, and you do need social attention to some degree,
however that silly voice in your head needs to be ignored. it doesnt know what its saying. nobody is better than you, and you do deserve to be around others. and if that voice is telling you to hurt yourself for no real reason, its clearly just out to get you. its not doing you any favours.
forget that voice, its not you. deal with what you want, not that voice in your head.
i think ive said this before. but maybe not to you, if something scares you that much, use the fear to your advantage.