Not sure what's happening.

[murderousflower]

Well, I've been ana/mia for almost two years. And i haven't purged in over a month. I'd been eating regularly, too. But everything is starting to fall downhill again. My ex is bi, and he's now dating my best friend (who is gay). And he (the ex) won't even talk to me. He always told me I was beautiful, and i believe him.
I've been so happy lately. But I haven't been eating much. I'm stuck between wanting ana/mia back, and not wanting it. When I don't eat, it's not because i'm filled with the old thoughts "i'm so fat!" like before. Now it's just a habit not to eat. Yes, I am overweight according to medical charts, but I don't feel the same hatred towards myself as before. I'm starting to love myself.....but can't figure out why I'm not eating.
Is it normal, to relapse in this way? Or is it just hormones?
Please don't suggest me talk to my "therapist". I have done that before, and he really isn't much help.

[BeautifulDisaster]

If your therapist isn't helpful, change. One of the ways to get through this is to get to the underlying issues in therapy & talk through it & find ways to cope.

[Wish]

It is possible to begin recovering in the way of thoughts but to still hold onto those destructive behaviours. I think that when this happens, you are harbouring some emotions on a more subconscious level. These thoughts can be more difficult to access but, in reality, you are already doing so by questioning them.

If you don't feel your therapist is helpful then, like Sarah said, change. I've switched therapists before and they won't take it negatively. It's just something that happens, you won't connect with everybody.

It sounds as if the break up with your ex didn't go so well as he isn't speaking to you, but it sounds as if you still care about him very much. Please hold onto the thoughts that you are a beautiful person and learn to love youself because if you can't, then who will? I know that sounds harsh but don't take it the wrong way, you do deserve to be loved. Perhaps you could consider sitting down with your ex and your best friend and telling them how you feel, or questioning how they are.

Take care xx