I ruined my one and only friendship

[cool person]

I homeschooled my entire life, up to year before last when I started at a community college. Im 17, so several years younger than anyone else at school. I have trouble mixing with kids in high school because we really don't have much in common. People often seem to like me at first, but as soon as they get to know me...they just seem to think I'm weird, I don't think its them, I can be weird, eccentric at times.
Well I have (had) one friend, but tonight I slammed her hand in a computer and kept pushing down despite her telling me several times to stop it and that I was hurting her. Needless to say, she was furious and stormed out of Starbucks. I honestly not sure why I did it, I think I was just playing around, I definitely wasn't trying to hurt her, though Im pretty sure she thoughts otherwise.

so to make a long story short, I just managed to seriously piss off, more likely lose, my one friend. I guess this was more or less a ramble, I just took a bunch of oxycodone so Im kinda hiiigh :). I just feel really depressed as of late, I feel like im going to go though my life alone, and its my fault.

[Scarface]

Well you made a mistake that's not a problem as long as you quickly make amends for it. She will notice that you're making an effort to apologize and that you still want her as a friend. She will respect you that you had the courage. You could take her out somewhere or take a walk with her and explain why you did it and tell her you were playing around and it was unintentional.

She may need some space after you apologize. It's always good that way you're not badgering her about it, that would be kinda creepy >_>. I hope things get better, just realize that you made a mistake and show her that you're willing to make up for it.

If you ever need someone to talk to I'm always here. Shoot me a VM anytime

[Jess]

apologize to her tell her you didn't mean to do it

[Nelson]

Know the feeling, im always fighting with my best chick friend, just apologize, mean it.. and then hopefully things work

[The Dark Lord]

apologise

[BlackBetty]

You need to apologize. And if she asks for an explanation about why you did that, tell her you was only playing around (if thats what you call playing).

Give her plenty of space and time to heal after you apologize, because it never looks good if you smother her with yourself.

[jenyroger]

If you some problem with your freind then you should to apologize it then give the explanation of your problem with her don't angry on her . Because she is also care for you . You have to work with understand .

[ryker]

I am in the same situation, unfortunately!

[MyNameIsJack]

Explain this to her, she'll understand.

[INFERNO]

One thing though is girls love to talk about how their interpersonal relationships are, especially those with the opposite sex to their friends. So if you try to apologize, don't be too shocked if her friends interfere and don't keep trying to push through to talk to her because they will tell her that you're a creep and a stalker. She may believe them or if her affection is still great enough, she may ignore her friends' advice. However, if you do the similar thing again, her friends will definitely agree with their negative views on her, console her more and she'll probably agree with them. At that point, apologies would be for courteousy but you'd likely have no chance beyond that. Lastly, girls also have friends with boys and so you may encounter some boys and girls defending her, meaning pushing through may result in the boys physically attacking you.

[janthem]

just apologize to her and explain to her that everyone makes mistakes and they should at least get a second chance