Lifeguard18
May 23rd, 2010, 02:53 PM
last night i was having the best time ever at a carnival with my friends and made new friends too :D
as me and someone else were looking for someone, i came across and old friend. she didnt recognize me at first lol. but once she saw me she was like, Holy shit you look so different. I said, i look that different? she said yes etc etc. she is openly gay and has a girlfriend and doesnt care what anybody thinks about her, i wish i could be more like that.
as we were talking, she asked me, Are you "out?" i asked, "who told you that?" she said, "I heard someone at a party say it. They said did you know Ant My Last Name is out?" I said, Holy crap, Ant's out?" then i said, "Do you know who the person was?" She said no.
we kept on talking a little more and she started saying dont be afraid of who you are (which im not) and dont care about what anyone thinks of you because you will get people like that. which is true.
i have and idea of who this person might be saying stuff to other people. i didnt tell her (this is a different girl) by myself, my other friend did the same night i told her. she was like, I just had to tell her what you said to me. Im sorry ant. i accepted her apology but i was going to tell here later on during the summer.
Last month, me and a friend hung out with each other. she wanted to go the the park and i said ok lets go. the swings were already taken so we walked through the woods and all. on the way back to the park she asked me, "is it true?" i said, "True what?" she said, "Just think very hard." i said, "I dont know what you are talking about." I really did but i wanted her to keep going. She said, "It begins with a g and ends with a y." I said "Im not gay." this is where my friend told my other friend that i was bi and she apologized for it comes in. "Well, last summer i was having a sleepover with with her (the person who i didnt tell i was bi) and she said she got a text saying you were gay." i said "Well, shes lying, im not gay, im bi."
so later on we were on the swings and she told me that the girl told a few other people. i was like whoa whoa whoa hold up a second how many people did she tell? she said, "only a few people and they dont care if you are or not." she only told around three people, as far as i know. im not saying it was her, i dont blame people right off the bat but i have a little feeling she is telling people.
we were mostly talking about this for the rest of the night til we went home to play wii were we got our minds of that subject.
back to the carnival. now, the person who i didnt recognize me i havnt talked to her in two and a half years. and she goes to a different school than i do. if that rumor that is true about me is going around like that, it could end up back at my school and later the other school. its a tri county thing so there is three high and middle schools. if it gotten that far, im so fucking screwed.
i dont know if i should just start telling people, make a post on facebook which is a bad idea, or take the wrong road and have the rumor spread which is the way i DONT WANT TO COME OUT!!!
and the thing that gets me is that i trusted her with that secret and she goes and tells people, is beyond me. im sorry, back to the swings part. she told me that this girl said being gay and bi is against of what she believed in and thats why she didnt show up to school on the day of silence.
ugh SCREW THIS SHIT!
and im sorry if i wrote an essay lol and if it was a little confusing.
as me and someone else were looking for someone, i came across and old friend. she didnt recognize me at first lol. but once she saw me she was like, Holy shit you look so different. I said, i look that different? she said yes etc etc. she is openly gay and has a girlfriend and doesnt care what anybody thinks about her, i wish i could be more like that.
as we were talking, she asked me, Are you "out?" i asked, "who told you that?" she said, "I heard someone at a party say it. They said did you know Ant My Last Name is out?" I said, Holy crap, Ant's out?" then i said, "Do you know who the person was?" She said no.
we kept on talking a little more and she started saying dont be afraid of who you are (which im not) and dont care about what anyone thinks of you because you will get people like that. which is true.
i have and idea of who this person might be saying stuff to other people. i didnt tell her (this is a different girl) by myself, my other friend did the same night i told her. she was like, I just had to tell her what you said to me. Im sorry ant. i accepted her apology but i was going to tell here later on during the summer.
Last month, me and a friend hung out with each other. she wanted to go the the park and i said ok lets go. the swings were already taken so we walked through the woods and all. on the way back to the park she asked me, "is it true?" i said, "True what?" she said, "Just think very hard." i said, "I dont know what you are talking about." I really did but i wanted her to keep going. She said, "It begins with a g and ends with a y." I said "Im not gay." this is where my friend told my other friend that i was bi and she apologized for it comes in. "Well, last summer i was having a sleepover with with her (the person who i didnt tell i was bi) and she said she got a text saying you were gay." i said "Well, shes lying, im not gay, im bi."
so later on we were on the swings and she told me that the girl told a few other people. i was like whoa whoa whoa hold up a second how many people did she tell? she said, "only a few people and they dont care if you are or not." she only told around three people, as far as i know. im not saying it was her, i dont blame people right off the bat but i have a little feeling she is telling people.
we were mostly talking about this for the rest of the night til we went home to play wii were we got our minds of that subject.
back to the carnival. now, the person who i didnt recognize me i havnt talked to her in two and a half years. and she goes to a different school than i do. if that rumor that is true about me is going around like that, it could end up back at my school and later the other school. its a tri county thing so there is three high and middle schools. if it gotten that far, im so fucking screwed.
i dont know if i should just start telling people, make a post on facebook which is a bad idea, or take the wrong road and have the rumor spread which is the way i DONT WANT TO COME OUT!!!
and the thing that gets me is that i trusted her with that secret and she goes and tells people, is beyond me. im sorry, back to the swings part. she told me that this girl said being gay and bi is against of what she believed in and thats why she didnt show up to school on the day of silence.
ugh SCREW THIS SHIT!
and im sorry if i wrote an essay lol and if it was a little confusing.