Well i'm truely f*cked

[Keats]

summer dress announced.
have to wear short sleeves.
managed to blag it today.
but now i want to cut so badly.
i just want to cut up my arm so it bleeds and keeps on bleeding.
right now i would'nt honestly care if i hit a vain and died.alone and unloved.
why is it the people we love are always the ones who hurt us the most?
probably going to be another sleepless night involving alot of cutting and burning.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

your not alone and i bet your definitly not unloved. i know i don't know you or anything but stil...

"why is it the people we love are always the ones who hurt us the most?"

^ cause we they're the ones who we care about and what they say matters

try not to give in to the urges, distract yourself, draw something, write something, just try not to. fight the urges, you'll feel better if you dont do it, i know its difficult, but when you cut, you'll feel happy for what 5 minutes? then regret it later.

sorry if this doesn't help much but message me if you want to talk :)

[Fiction]

I have exactly the same problem as you. Maybe try to cut and burn somewhere that isn't your arms? If i have a particularly bad cut or burn somewhere really obvious i wear a plaster over it which is alot easier to make excuses for than cuts and burns.The obvious soulution is to stop cutting and burning but i know thats a lot easier said than done. Good luck :)

[Keats]

had an awefull day today.
went to thorpe park with some 'friends'
one of which was meant to stay at mine the night but got a better offer so didn't.
was waiting to go on stealth (for those of you who have been there) and i look beside me and there's a girl with scars all over her left forarm standing there with her friend.
i wanted to talk to her, but i was with my friends who don't know.
i felt helpless and torn.
i don't know what i'm trying to say.
but yeah...

[Fiction]

We all have bad days. try not to cut over it. Pm me if you want to talk :) x

[Keats]

can't pm, haven't got 100 posts :/,
probably the worst day i've had in a while.
and it's comming up to my birthday.
yay. (sarcasm)

[Keats]

another sleepless night.
really hard not to cut when you can't sleep

[Fiction]

Oh sorry i forgot they moved it up too 100 posts :( Well when you have feel free too pm me :) And i know its hard not too cut when you can't sleep. It's when i find it hardest. You just have to tell yourself its doing no good. Do you want too stop? or are you simply just not ready?

[Keats]

i'm not sure, but when i try to quit.
when i start again it's always worse.
i guess maybe i'm just not ready yet.

[Fiction]

I'm the same. Whenever i go for a while without cutting i jsut cut worse the next time. I wish i could stop but i jsut don't think i want too enough. I really wish i could help you but maybe you should try taking baby steps? Instead of just stopping why not try cutting less frequently or make shallower, smaller cuts. It's worth a try if you really want to stop :/

[Keats]

yeah i've moved away from my arms, towards my chest and legs.
less likely to be spotted.
instead of doing lots of shallow/medium ones, i'm doing a couple deep ones.
dunno if thats good or not.