I'm becoming the mess I used to be once again.

[1_21Guns]

the snapping,
the continual verge of a breakdown,
one small thing and i'll either break down or get really mad then break down.
no control over how i react to situations.
complete fear of everything around me changing.
complete fear of what i don't know.
i'm sinking deeper, and i've tryed to stay above it all, but i'm getting tired.
it's not just the draining from helping my friend anymore.
it's everything.
school. friends. family.
everything.
ive already gone back to my old ways without noticing before it was too late.
all the work everyone did to help me, just undone in a matter of weeks.
all the time i spent trying to control my temper, wasted.
i'm just a waste.
a waste of time.
a waste of space.
just a waste of life.
i'd give anything for everyone to just fall out with me and leave me to die.
but ofc they won't do that will they.
it just never ends. ever.

[ExEmoBlood]

[insert long sigh here]
4 words: Stop. Puting. Yourself. Down.

You have GOT to look for the good aspects that you have! And I can't claim to know you. Not even a tiny bit. But I *can* tell what one great aspect that you have is. But I want you to try to guess what it is, first.

Go on. Guess.

[anon123]

You're not a waste. Ignore what people think of you. Focus on school. Everything you're going through is normal.

[Mike321]

You are by no means a waste, your a great help to your friend and help alot of people out on here too.
And as Josh said, dont put yourself down, try and look for positives in this situation (not easy I know).
As you know, feel free to PM if you need to talk
Hope your okay

[Hanyo]

Mike321 is right, you've already done very kind things and been a help to people. You're not a waste, its just a shame that depression is robbing you of your happiness. Please fight your depression and become happy!