Had enough of this life. Cant go on anymore.

[Aceso]

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[screamtobeheard]

Sweety, suicide is never the answer. There are people that can help you. Maybe you should see a counselor. But things always get better. If you need to talk about it, everyone here will support you. Feel free to PM me.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

hun, don't commit suicied, its not the answer. people will miss you and i feel like such a hypocrite saying that but still. don't give up hope.

and i know that this doesnt help much :(

<3 :hug3: xx

[Zeh Crazy]

Keep on keepin' on. You'll hate every minute of it. And you will suffer. But things will change. It's different for everyone. Some people have to wait longer. But you always gotta have that restless and hopeful spirit. You always have to hope.

[Aspiringanonymous]

Everyone has been stating and re-stating how things do change and oftentimes for the better over time - regardless of how empty those words might seem to you now, they speak the truth. There are many who can testify to that, including myself.

What I want to touch on are the practical considerations in this situation. Why was home tutoring rejected? What about transferring to another school, or enrolling in online school? Going to a boarding school? I'm assuming that your parents are aware of your struggles - to what extent are they willing to help you?

Sometimes the journey may seem bleak and endlesss, but there is always the possibility of discovering a hidden trail somewhere along the way - a shortcut, a way out of the darkness. But you have to stand up for yourself and look carefully, rather than be content to resignation. Take up the struggle and fight with passion - because self-empowerment is truly a wonderful feeling.

I'll always be here for you, hun.

May you find strength to hold your head up high. :hug3:

[Stallion]

Please dont do somehting that i know you will regret. times get hard and people feel the way you do but you need to realise that no matter what happens in life there is always going to be good. It may not ocme instantly but it will come. everything passes. it will be the hardest thing you do in life to pull through how you are feeling. but if you do somehting that is the wrong decision you will not only affect yourself but everybody you know. i have experienced souicide in my family and it is the hardest thing to go through especially when it is going to pass.
so please dont do anything and it will all get better

[anon123]

Don't give up, god loves you!

[1_21Guns]

I cant carry on anymore. I was going so well but recently its come crashing down.
and it can all go well again, believe me, suicide will do you no favours.

I guess its time to open up. My best friend died of a heart attack last tuesday. My mom was the one who directed the ambulences to where she was. I tried to be brave and strong, but a few days later someone walked out of my life too. Someone so special to me, and that broke my heart. All my friends are constantly flaming me, and Im fucking up my life.
To finish off, im home tutored because school got so bad I was almost scuicidal. They drove me to cutting. Im still attatched to the school because that makes things easier.
cutting and everything didnt make it all go away hun though did it, really? your stronger than all this. people leave you in life, that's the way it works. yeah it hurts like mad, and we dont think we could possibly keep holding on like this. without those people, but we can. those people wouldn't want to see us fall apart the way we do.

Today, my mom recieved an e-mail saying that my home tutoring case has not been accepted. I have to go back, or pull out completely and my parents dont want to pull me out completely. Im going back to that hell hole, where I was the most unpopular girl in school. Where everyone stared at me down the corridoor,whispering making sure I always felt unwanted and useless, stupid, ugly. Where whenever I tried to stand up to them, They laughed and managed to find something else, or laugh at me for trying to be cool. Where every time I tried to walk away, they would throw rocks at my head, and if it was cold, sharp ice chunks.
i'll tell you a secret, all those idiots have more insecurities than you do.
thats why they pick at you.
they don't understand, and they have no will to try to.
thats how good of a person they all are.
rise above it. don't even react. let them throw things, let them pick. show you couldnt care less, even though its killing you inside. because by reacting your just giving them the reaction they crave.
your beautiful hun, everyone is in thier own ways. i'm damn sure your not stupid. and people to love care and want you.

Well, I dont care what it takes, Im not doing this anymore. Im not going back. I dont care if I have to run away, Id rather die than go back. I have had enough of this life. I dont care anymore. I just know that I have really fucked up at everything and I have had enough. Im giving up.
You know what? Its my 14th birthday this saturday. I invited 20 people. One person could come to it. That pretty summs up my life, but I wont have to worry about that anymore. I just want to kill myself. I tried the other day by overdose. I am going to try again. I dont want to live anymore, I have had enough.

you wouldn't rather die than go back, you just feel like going back is a death sentance in itself? this life that your sick of, for all anybody knows could be your last.
your too young to throw it away now, 14 years old. you could live another 80 years, a perfectly happy and meaninful life.
don't try again hun. you actually have so much to live for, you just don't want to see it.
stay strong, you can VM me whenever you want, i'm always here.

[ThomasB.]

God help you. Sucicide is not the answer!! Believe me, I was bullied for years at primary school, that almost drove me down the same path. Then I realised and told them- "You know what? You are nothing. The only reason you pick on me is because you have nothing better to do with your life. So don't try to make my life just like yours." Funnily enough they didn't say anything to me after that. But anyway- Killing yourself isn't going to do you any favours. These people shouldn't be able to do this to you. You will be out of school soon enough. You have a whole life ahead of you. Don't end it now.

[lassidoggy]

Don't commit suicide, it is NEVER the way to go!

[Aceso]

Thanks for all the help guys, its helped in a way I guess...

But things just got bad to worse. The only thing I have left, my horses, damn it sounds so sad but its true. But my mum is pressuring me to sell one or put him down, because its ''putting pressure on the family''. I know I cant do it, but everyone is telling me to and Im so bloody confused I dont know what to decide anymore. :(

And schoolwise, ignoring them doesnt work. Anyone I have ever tried to deal with, anyone I have tried to ignore, has laughed at me. It sounds so pathetic but it just makes you feel so small and stupid and ugly, like you dont deserve to be on this earth.
And whats worse, is it will stay the same way. I have never known what its like to have friends, because I am the outsider, the one thats different. You know what? I would die to be like those other people. The ones with a normal, stable life. The ones who can hang out with friends. But its never gunna happen. Thats what hurts. :(

[1_21Guns]

Thanks for all the help guys, its helped in a way I guess...

But things just got bad to worse. The only thing I have left, my horses, damn it sounds so sad but its true. But my mum is pressuring me to sell one or put him down, because its ''putting pressure on the family''. I know I cant do it, but everyone is telling me to and Im so bloody confused I dont know what to decide anymore. :(
hun, if it's all you have left don't let them take it from you.

And schoolwise, ignoring them doesnt work. Anyone I have ever tried to deal with, anyone I have tried to ignore, has laughed at me. It sounds so pathetic but it just makes you feel so small and stupid and ugly, like you dont deserve to be on this earth.
And whats worse, is it will stay the same way. I have never known what its like to have friends, because I am the outsider, the one thats different. You know what? I would die to be like those other people. The ones with a normal, stable life. The ones who can hang out with friends. But its never gunna happen. Thats what hurts. :(

they will laugh, because they have nothing better to laugh at. i know exactly how you feel, it makes you feel so small and worthless doesn't it? like your existance is purely for thier amusement. but you dont want to be.
you won't stay the same way hun, nobody stays like that forever. i used to be like that, in a way i still am the outsider, although i have friends and people i sit with i don't really fit in with them, i dont really fit in with anyone. because i'm different just like you.
but if we werent all different we'd all be boring.
you can be like those people hun, one day, you can be.

[Aceso]

I cant do anything to stop them, theyre all rallying against him and me, they wont listen to me or let me do anything, because im only 14 :(
I Just want to run away...or die... Even my best friend wants mac dead...I never did anything, but he doesnt seem to be my friend anymore :cry:

[1_21Guns]

hun, running away won't help you.
and dying certainly won't.
it wont make anything go away.
youve just said yourself, your only 14.
you have a whole life ahead of you.
yeah, its rough now, and youd rather not be living it.
but for all we know its the only one you get.
people get tired of fighting all the time, they just want the easiest solution that isnt always the best for those involved.
which may be why your best friend seems to want that.
have you asked him why he seems so distant from you?
good luck hun, hold on.

[Titan]

Isn't the school year over for you? If it's soon then you won't have to worry about them for almost 3 months. Is there a way for you to go to a different school?

[Saphire_Alexi]

The exact thing happened to me this year, minus the heart attack and ice chunks. But trust me, if you feel this way, I suggest going to a teen group therapy, it helped a lot to know other people felt like me. No matter what, if you do die, your family and friends will hurt, and your depression will sort of be a chain reaction to your loved ones. Think about that.