Amyxoxo
May 16th, 2010, 12:17 PM
Haha, well I think I lasted a week but it truly has been the shittist week of my entire life!!!
Monday - I started my lovely week of exams (Yippie!) English (SA-D, SB-C) However he needs to get them moderated as I will probs get a grade higher. Then music, that I FAILED. The start to my failing week.
Tuesday - Maths, I had no clue what I was doing. I was sitting in the exam hall and I couldn't think about anything else other than dying. I had brought my razor into school again, I just sat in the loo's the next lesson crying and cutting. After break I had science, that was OK I sopose I got a B. That made me feel a little better. I usually go out on a tuesday night but I didn't have to go so I sat at home "revising".
Wednesday - Another english Paper I couldn't concentrate in that as well. I was thinking about anything and everything other that english!! Typical me. Then I had a PE exam. I soppose that was OK but I finished like 10 mins into a 45 min paper so I rather bored!
Thursday - District sports ... URGH Well my first event was Javelin, I lost I didn't even come in the top 8, however that was OK, I can't throw a javelin! haha. Then Discus. I think that I'm quite good at it. Last year I done county so I had quite a lot of pressure riding on my to do it again. I have never came below second in it. I CAME 5TH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow I'm so annoyed with myself that I resorted to drastic measures, not cutting! I teased myself I hate me and I don't know why anyone would bother with me.
OK so now you think that I'm a saw loser, well the week before I threw 22 something. I would have thrashed the field if I had thrown that but today I threw 17 !!!!!!!! URGH That is what annoyed me! Lol, then I done 1500m. Some one pulled out so I said I would do it. I practically collapsed on the side because I was going to faint haha, then I ran the last bit with my friend. I'm so unfitt!!!!!!!!!
Friday - Nothing extremely bad happened apart from I found out that an e-mail had been sent round to all the staff about my problems and how I needed extra support.
Saturday - It was OK. I went to a work party at the campsite so I could work my mind off things haha.
Today - I just had county Netball trials. Now from the off set I knew that I wasn't going to get in. Even our teacher had said so!! I went in the middle of it though. My friend was feeling unwell so we came home. That was another FAIL.
So, yeah. That was my week. Pretty shit. Good welcome back haha :L
Sorry for the rant btw :) xx
Monday - I started my lovely week of exams (Yippie!) English (SA-D, SB-C) However he needs to get them moderated as I will probs get a grade higher. Then music, that I FAILED. The start to my failing week.
Tuesday - Maths, I had no clue what I was doing. I was sitting in the exam hall and I couldn't think about anything else other than dying. I had brought my razor into school again, I just sat in the loo's the next lesson crying and cutting. After break I had science, that was OK I sopose I got a B. That made me feel a little better. I usually go out on a tuesday night but I didn't have to go so I sat at home "revising".
Wednesday - Another english Paper I couldn't concentrate in that as well. I was thinking about anything and everything other that english!! Typical me. Then I had a PE exam. I soppose that was OK but I finished like 10 mins into a 45 min paper so I rather bored!
Thursday - District sports ... URGH Well my first event was Javelin, I lost I didn't even come in the top 8, however that was OK, I can't throw a javelin! haha. Then Discus. I think that I'm quite good at it. Last year I done county so I had quite a lot of pressure riding on my to do it again. I have never came below second in it. I CAME 5TH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow I'm so annoyed with myself that I resorted to drastic measures, not cutting! I teased myself I hate me and I don't know why anyone would bother with me.
OK so now you think that I'm a saw loser, well the week before I threw 22 something. I would have thrashed the field if I had thrown that but today I threw 17 !!!!!!!! URGH That is what annoyed me! Lol, then I done 1500m. Some one pulled out so I said I would do it. I practically collapsed on the side because I was going to faint haha, then I ran the last bit with my friend. I'm so unfitt!!!!!!!!!
Friday - Nothing extremely bad happened apart from I found out that an e-mail had been sent round to all the staff about my problems and how I needed extra support.
Saturday - It was OK. I went to a work party at the campsite so I could work my mind off things haha.
Today - I just had county Netball trials. Now from the off set I knew that I wasn't going to get in. Even our teacher had said so!! I went in the middle of it though. My friend was feeling unwell so we came home. That was another FAIL.
So, yeah. That was my week. Pretty shit. Good welcome back haha :L
Sorry for the rant btw :) xx