Personal Demons.

[PlastiqueDoll3]

Well, ive been cutting for a little less than a year. im new to it and lucky it hasnt escalated to suicide.
my family is a huge story all in itself, my dad was actually (in my opinion) was the person who pushed me to cutting. my parents are divorced, my sister is a pothead and partyanimal. we basically hate eachother. my oldest brother is a christian and the only sibling i admire. my youndest brother used to cut when he was my age and attempted suicide many times. he is also a pothead and parties all teh time. my mom is the classic TV parent. she would dismiss any teen problem with "Oh, its just a stage" and then sweep it under the rug.
I am a christian, and my faith is the only thing keeping me from commiting suicide at the moment.
when i cut, its usually when im extremely upset and crying so hard that my head throbs. my cuts have been getting deeper and deeper each time i cut. all my friends know and so does my mom. my mom doesnt say anything about it if she sees my cuts. ive tried to stop once, but it didnt last long, so i just gave up.
i like the way the cuts look though. is that weird? for some reason it makes me feel better about myself with scars and scabbs all over. i usually only cover the scabs. i dont care if people see the scars. they can think what they want.
but any way, id love to hear peoples stories.
Alaina. :yawn:

[Amyxoxo]

Well in answer to your question that isn't weird at all!
For many people that is why they cut, they like the look of the scabs and cuts and scars, well for now at least.
I know you probably don't think about it when your cutting but just think do you want to have excessive amounts of scars on your arms?
What about if you children ask?
Anyhows :P
I started self harming about 2 years ago.
I don't know at all why I started, that is what I'm trying to find out by going to CAMHS! lol
I started fairly OK I suppose, well I would use pen lids, I had nothing else. I would say that it started lightly however I still have the scar from the first time that I ever cut right on my arm.
Then I started to cut "properly" I was doing this rather lightly to start however I now have many scars on my arms.
Then one day at school there was this little phase.
Friction burns, yes lol!
I would use a rubber and rub it across my harm for ages.
It started on my hand, that was rather a bad idea as it is soooo obvious!
So I have continued doing all that for the past 18 months I so pose.
I did try to get help once however I absolutely HATED it!!
I tried again recently I still hate it, if not more however I want to get over this.
So anyhows that is the basics haha
Luck Amy xx

[Janey18588]

Hi iv been self harming since i was about 11or12 ,im 17 now and i have reacived little or no help or support from anyone .I think the most important thing is to find somone you can talk to so that if a situation arises where you feel the need to hurt yourself you talk to them 1st so maybe you wont .About your sister im not critising your opinion on her but for about a year i used drinking and drugs as an outlet ..this may be her way of coping ,have you tried to talk to her about self harm !? she may be abe to relate to you more than you think I hope this helps and if you would like to talk to me leave me a message on my profile :)