Argh!

[screamtobeheard]

Okay. I'm going to start this post by saying that I can't do anything right. I even wrote out this post twice before this and deleted it twice! Which naturally made me want to hurt something. Anyway. I originally started writing this because I feel so many things right now. And I hate it. I feel useless, worthless, stupid, fat, ugly, alone, petty. I got a bad grade on a huge paper. And if I don't have my writing skills and my intelligence, I've got nothing as far as this world I'm being forced into is concerned. I'm worthless and alone. I can't seem to explain to anyone sufficiently what this feels like. But it feels awful and I hate it. I just want to feel normal again. I can't remember the last time I did. I'm not typing out everything that's bothering me again. But my entire day was absolutely awful. And then I think about how my friend's dad just passed away unexpectedly of a heart attack and my cousin has real issues too. She has some kind of psychological problem and her dad recently died as well. So all these people around me have real problems and I just have this little nothing that feels like shit but I know isn't bad. I feel like a completely useless, worthless, idiotic, petty jerk.

[Scarface]

You're overwhelming yourself with everything that's going on and not even giving yourself time to step back, breathe, analyze and act with everything that your faced with at the moment. I'm glad you're letting it all out here it's a good step. You shouldn't degrade yourself, you should take credit for the things you do. Think about all of the good things that you have done and quit sitting in your problems and get up dust yourself off and move on.

Hang out with some positive people or even your parents so you can have some time to relax and be motivated and have some fun. Just breathe and take it easy in due time things will turn around and get better. Keep your head up and if you ever need someone to talk to I'm always here, shoot me a VM anytime.