Just want somone to talk to

[Janey18588]

I dont remember when i first started cutting myself but i think i was bout 11 or 12 ,first i just scraped my hands till they were raw as i got older i used any sharp metal object i could get my hands on to cut myself .I feel such releif when i do it but unbearably guilty when i look at my family and friends ,I have recently attemped suicide twice .But i think i mainly did it to cause myself intense pain 1st time:cut my wrists until i passed out with the pain my wrists were raw and extrmely painfull as the razor i had used wasnt sharp enough but i loved the feel of wounds and loved touching them .I stopped all forms of self abuse for a while until i had a fight with my friend and then with my parents i had also had a hard time in school so i took 15-20 pain killers .After a while the pain started to set in and i could feel them almost ripping my stomach to shreds i was in agony but i felt so much better .My mam found me and made me get sick .And since then i have been self harming again .I used to mask my self harm with exesive peircing i would go and get something peirced once a week for about a year but cutting really does it for me .On my arms and hands .Then i wear gloves and long sleave shirts till they scab and usually come up with some blatent lie about the injury ....If theres anyone out there that relates to me i would love to talk to them .My family are not very in touch with there emotions .We dont cry,no one goes to councilling regardless of what has gone wrong,dont tell anyone your buisness .Well i need to talk to somone .There has to be someone out there like me .If so Just send a reply A.s.a.p

With hope ,
Jane

[1_21Guns]

hun, i'm here if you need to talk, i can see your having alot of trouble with your cutting, i can relate to your post quite well, so i'm open to try and help you.

[Aspiringanonymous]

Welcome to VT, Jane. It's good that you have joined - you are among supportive company here.

I too come from a family where any expression of emotion is frowned upon, and thus it became a necessity to hide any hint of mental unwellness from nearly everyone in real life. Occasionally someone would approach my parents telling them that I need professional help, which was always responded with a firm denial and more grief for me in private.

I like to think of myself as recovered now, although I remember the struggle well - how difficult it is to feel, and actually be alone against a powerful force that threatened what little mental clarity I had left, on a daily basis.

But I also remember what it was like to feel free for the first time. And I can say, from experience, that a life without self-harm is possible. It is possible to cope with difficult emotions and situations without inflicting more destruction upon oneself. Cliche, I know, but you've just got to hang in there and remain open to the possibility of positive change. Everything will be okay.

You are free to PM me at any time, or continue posting here. Many will be glad to help you. :hug3:

[Scarface]

Hey welcome to VT. I understand and can relate with your post. When cut I used to wear long sleeves or I just wouldn't go anywhere. I understand your frustration because not having the ability to talk to someone about things like this is hard and it's not good to bottle up your feelings. I am glad that you have sought help by coming here. Your making a good step by talking about it here because were here to help you. You're not alone feel free to send me a VM if you need help or just need someone to talk to. I hope you stop cutting and this time permanently because it's only causing you more problems.

[Mike321]

Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk about anything, your not alone with this

[DarkWingedAngel]

You are not alone with this. If you wanna talk PM me or VM me.

[amyyyy]

i need someoe to talk to ??

[piggy-wiggy]

i was so sorry to read what youve been through..
you can pm me if you ever need to talk.. (:

[Janey18588]

Hey thanks for the reply ,really means a lot : )

[Asylum]

hey Jane,
welcome to VT. I'm really sorry about what you are going through... i know its hard,i really do.. i've been there, struggle with it daily.. but there is a way out... there is a light at the end of the tunnel. thats only if you want to stop. i also know how hard it is being the only kid who cuts, having to hide it because parents don't unerstand and neither do the kids around you. my parents made fun of me whn i got a psycologist, they would scream at me, mom has told me to go cut myself, told me i deserved to be in a mental hospital and at least she has one child that isn't insane... it's hard.. so point is i don't have a psycologist anymore.. it is really great that you came accross this site, because this site will help you. there are people here that are more then willing like me, who can help you. know that you are not alone... you can always VM me if you need me, i'm here for you. i'll keep you in my thougths and prayers and i hope your future changes for the better. take care :)

[Janey18588]

Hey thanks i really have no idea how to work this so il just reply this way ..woulf love to talk .Once i figure out how ha x

[Asylum]

anytime :) umm if you go and click on the person who posts name and scroll down to view public profile it will take you to their profile. there you can Virtual post by posting in the box. once you get 100 posts you can PM (private message) someone which is like email

[alexmalecheerleader]

Jane i totally understand about the family thing i come from a Asian family and its not custom to show your feeling if you need some serious help please email me at
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or go to your school and ask for counseling

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[Brighter.Tomorrow]

Hey, if you ever need to talk, feel free to VM me. You can also find my IM services in my Contact Info, feel free to contact me.

I've gone through cutting, and with sometime I got out of it. And to this day I'm glad I did.
I'd be glad to help you through it if you'd like. =]

[georgiamay]

hey, i'm always here for you if you want to PM me :) i've had a lot of trouble with cutting and self harm, so i can relate to your post. if you ever need to talk i'm here for you x