Feeling Suicidal

[steve1234]

Ok, I know feeling suicidal is common amongst teenagers, but is there a point when you should start worrying about it?

Most of my teenage life, I have thought about suicide about every 2-3 months. Nothing serious, just thinking about it.
But recently, I have been thinking about it daily. And its not just once in the day, I seem to be thinking about it now many times a day.

Now, sometimes when I wait for a bus or a train, I consider jumping in front of it to just end my life. I have even thought about the details about killing my self, such as where to get a rope, whatever.

I don't think I will ever end my life. Its a selfish thing to do, it would completley destroy my parents and family, and maybe my close friends. I am scared about what will happen after I die - like where I will go etc. Also, I keep thinking to myself, things can change and I might enjoy life in the future.
Part of me wants to kill myself to seek attention. But, this would make people think I am a selfish person, and I don't think it would upset my friends for that long. They might be sad for a couple of days, but then they will just go back to normal and forget about me. I certainly can't see them crying.

Anyway, I hope I haven't made anyone depressed by reading that :D . Is it something for me to worry about, as I am thinking about it almost all the time?

Thanks,
Steve :)

[Sith Lord 13]

First off, you're not alone. I've thought about suicide on a more than daily basis too. Kind of became my mantra when whenever I fucked up. I would just keep thinking it inside my head.

The thing to remember is that whatever your problem is, it's temporary. Suicide is permanent. Just remember that death is never the answer.

Now, can you think of anything that triggers these kinds of thoughts in you? Anything specific that you might see, do, or think of, that brings about these suicidal ideations?

[steve1234]

First off, you're not alone. I've thought about suicide on a more than daily basis too. Kind of became my mantra when whenever I fucked up. I would just keep thinking it inside my head.

The thing to remember is that whatever your problem is, it's temporary. Suicide is permanent. Just remember that death is never the answer.

Now, can you think of anything that triggers these kinds of thoughts in you? Anything specific that you might see, do, or think of, that brings about these suicidal ideations?

I understand my depression may be temporary, but I have been feeling like this for quite some time.
At the moment, I can't think of any specific triggers. I think it is just life in general. I'm finding it difficult to socialise, difficult talking to girls. I am stressed because of exams. I feel I am ugly, and no one likes me etc etc etc bla bla bla. It may be all those things, but I feel there is something more. Hopefully I will work out what is triggering it.

[Sith Lord 13]

I understand that. But a long time is not forever. One day things will change.

I understand what you're saying. Life sucks. It does. But it gets better. I'm 19. I've still never been kissed. I hate the way I look. Can't socialize with people. Can't think of anyone who's met me in the flesh who actually likes me. But I'm still better off now then I was 4 years ago.

Life gets better. You just have to stick around to see it.

[steve1234]

I understand that. But a long time is not forever. One day things will change.

I understand what you're saying. Life sucks. It does. But it gets better. I'm 19. I've still never been kissed. I hate the way I look. Can't socialize with people. Can't think of anyone who's met me in the flesh who actually likes me. But I'm still better off now then I was 4 years ago.

Life gets better. You just have to stick around to see it.

Thanks very much Sith Lord 13. Although I do feel very suicidal at the moment, I am not going to kill myself, but im just starting to worry about how much im thinking about it.
Thanks again.

[Sith Lord 13]

I'm happy to help. I understand your worry. Once you make 100, feel free to PM me too.

If you ever feel like you are going to kill yourself, please seek professional help. I'm happy to help you out as much as I can, but I can't help you as much as a professional can.

[ShatteredWings]

First off, suicide is serious regardless, but I understand what you mean - I haven't been not suicidal in a long time but I'm not going to act on it, thereby making it far less of an issue than someone who's planing on taking their life.

You seem to have a problem. You also reconize it, which is a good thing.
Having plans is the most worrying part of your post. Is it a passing plan, or have you serously thought about ways to end your life?

If there's any one you can talk to about what's making you depressed and feel like life isn't worth it, talk to them. Or post here.

[Fruitman]

Now i reccommend you talk to your doctor about it at your next checkup. You may be prescribed medication or need to go for counseling. IF YOU FEEL LIKE UR ACTUALLY GOING TO DO IT YOU NEED TO CALL THE PARAMEDICS

[MyNameIsJack]

Everytime I have a problem, and I know that I didn't do anything wrong, and I feel powerless, impotent I find suicide as the best way to stop that feeling. But it's just an idea, I feel curious, what'd happen if i do?

[Viral Death]

Whenever I feel suicidal I just go sit on the couch and play games on my Ipod or I crack open a Mt. Dew and I play COD4 to get rid of that feeling

[Ryhanna]

Whenever I feel suicidal I just go sit on the couch and play games on my Ipod or I crack open a Mt. Dew and I play COD4 to get rid of that feeling

That really kind of makes it sound like a regular thing, you know? :S