I don't really have words for this.

[screamtobeheard]

I just can't find the words to express what I'm feeling anymore. I just don't want to be here. I'm not happy with myself. Or the way that my life is. And there are times in my life when I can accept that I hate my life but still manage to be content with little things. Then after a week or so, I find myself back here. And I don't know why. I can't explain it. Nothing triggers it. Just one minute I'll be completely fine. Happy, even. And the next minute I'll be crying. And I'll be in that down mood for weeks. And I just wish I could express how it feels. Because it's killing me, and maybe if I could express it someone could help me.

[SimSailorNick]

Have you tried spending time thinking about how you got happy then sad instantly? I mean think of things the happend recently, the people you talked to or the things you've done that you think affected the way you're feeling. Hope i helped :] And just remember to enjoy life. I mean we weren't meant to live a life of sadness. :]

[RockstarRocks]

I no what u are going through i go through the same thing except i am sad for past events that happend to me and they mest me up i dont talk to anyone at school or anything nomore but i do understand and yea it is hard to exspalin but i no what it is because i have it also so if u want to talk to me about it u can i love making others feel better if it makes u feel better to talk about it if not thats fine i understand.

[ExEmoBlood]

And just remember to enjoy life. I mean we weren't meant to live a life of sadness. :]

Well said.
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Depression is often hard to depict. Sometimes it's numerous things, and that makes it hard to put your finger down on one, single thing that may have caused it. I went through similar instances. Exactly the way you describe it. I'd randomly cry-- not knowing how to explain it.

Think back to things that have upset you in the past-- you may notice something similar in recent events. Sometimes things subconciously remind us of past events. It all comes down to introspecting. Then, you may be able to draw, or write (a poem or semi-fictional story) about it. Best of luck to you, hun.

[screamtobeheard]

Have you tried spending time thinking about how you got happy then sad instantly?

I have, and I can't really figure out what it was. I don't remember anything happening, really. But I guess something must have happened.

Depression is often hard to depict. Sometimes it's numerous things, and that makes it hard to put your finger down on one, single thing that may have caused it.

The thing is, I don't actually have depression that I know of. It just feels like it. But yeah, it's like a million things I could talk about why I'm upset, I just didn't realize they were there until yesterday.

[ExEmoBlood]

Naivity is a normal thing for we humans. You know them to be there, now. So, just try to fix them, now. Or at least work toward fixing them. Or even understanding them.

Best of luck, friend.