Can't feel...

[ParanoidCutter]

I'm on prozac. It's been weird anyway, but this morning I woke up, and I was really confused, and I still am. I can't seem to feel anything. It's all like a blurry dream. I'm not living. This isn't life. I have no idea whats happened or what to do. Before all this I had the feeling sick, and then the highs and lows. See I always thought I was bipolar, but having these antidepressants is making the highs bad too, so maybe I actually am bipolar. I'm not making much sense so I'm sorry. But I am ever so confused. I'm not on a high right now by the way. I'm just nothing. Empty. Nothing.

[TheWizard]

You need to go back to your doctor and try some different meds. They shouldn't zone you out.

[Hyper]

Personally ive had fun with depression felt it strongly for half a decade started at a very young age but

Those meds usualy dont help some do but eventualy what happend is I became more and more depressed.. But all together I had to beat myself and become over the depression

[northskater110]

dude, u may wanna talk to ur parents or doctor about it. but dont just try to work ur way through it, cuz something bad may happen

~grant

[ParanoidCutter]

You think it isn't good? Well next week I have a check up appointment with the psychiatrist that gave me the meds, so I'll see what she says. I can't really say much to my parents, they don't understand at the best of times. They seem to just go along with it. Like when I'm depressed they will leave me be, and maybe ask whats up. (Duhhh...can't explain it) If I'm all hyper and stuff, then they just laugh along with it and look at me funny.

I just don't see how this is helping at all... I know you have to give it time. But I am doing and all I can think about when I am depressed is that I need to end it.

Prozac and other antidepressants apparently increase suicidal thoughts and stuff in teens and kids, so I knew that was likely, but actually living with it is different. How did antidepressants work for you? Anyone who has been on them?

I have already OD'd on it twice (this is the liquid btw) and had to fill it back to the line it was on with water. So what I have been having has been diluted, but the dosage is increased. I get a new bottle soon, so that won't be diluted. But I just keep thinking how when I get my hands on it I can drink the whole damn bottle.

This isn't real. It's so weird. I can't go to school. I'm fucking my life up more so if I ever do recover it'll be worse. I'm alienating my friends with my more intense mood swings (not that I ever see them).

I knew what I was agreeing to when I said I would go on medication, but it doesn't seem to be helping in the slightest.

[ParanoidCutter]

Okay, I just kinda quit my medication cold turkey. Because it felt all wrong. Nobody knows. I just poured the liquid away and refilled it with water. =/ I know it isn't good. But y'know.. I'm feeling better now than I felt when I was on the medication. We'll see how it goes.

[ParanoidCutter]

Now I am feeling crap again... =<

I still believe I am bipolar. I shall talk to my therapist and see what she thinks. Nobody on here seems to think much about it =/
I can't just get back on the medication because everyone thinks the stuff in the bottle IS the medication and that it is making me better.