I wish I was strong enough to help you.

[1_21Guns]

but i'm not.
I've been telling you i'm strong enough to help you, but I don't think I am anymore.
I know I promised i'd tell you if I cut again,
I haven't since I last told you.
But even if I did, I don't think i'd tell you.
I don't know how much longer I can try to get you to stop.
You can't see what your doing to yourself.
I wish you could, but you just won't see it.
Your killing me, you know it hurts me, but you don't know just how much it hurts.
I can't possibly tell you how weak I am right now.
I'll just have to keep pretending I can handle you,
saying nobody cares, not even me.
That you don't matter, that it doesnt matter your scarring yourself for life.
Why won't you see what your doing?
I've shown you what it leaves you doing, but you won't see it for yourself.
Why? I'm so close to relapsing at the moment, but i'm trying to stay strong just so you realise there is hope.
I blame myself for this.
I know it's not my fault.
But I still blame myself.
Why won't you just see what your doing to yourself?
I know it's not easy, I never said it was.
I just want you to stop, before you end up in hospital.
I just want you to stop.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

:hug: hun it really sounds like you need to take some time to yourself before you fully break down and revert to your old habits. helping your friend may mean a lot to you but you need to remember to take care of yourself too. pm me if you need to talk

[1_21Guns]

:hug: hun it really sounds like you need to take some time to yourself before you fully break down and revert to your old habits. helping your friend may mean a lot to you but you need to remember to take care of yourself too. pm me if you need to talk

thanks, I think I do need to take some time out but I can't leave her, then she'll think i've stopped caring like she thinks everyone else has. Before long i'm going to have no choice though... :/

[Mike321]

Everyone deserves a day off, just take some time for youself, she knows you care and surley she will understand how hard it is for you.
Even if its just for a night, take a break, you need time to rest
Feel free to PM me if you want to talk

[1_21Guns]

Everyone deserves a day off, just take some time for youself, she knows you care and surley she will understand how hard it is for you.
Even if its just for a night, take a break, you need time to rest
Feel free to PM me if you want to talk

yeah you're right. thanks.

[Amyxoxo]

You shouldn't blame yourself for someone else's mistakes.
Unless Im getting the wrong idea about this and your actually talking about yourself.
Help me understand so I can help please :P x

[1_21Guns]

You shouldn't blame yourself for someone else's mistakes.
Unless Im getting the wrong idea about this and your actually talking about yourself.
Help me understand so I can help please :P x

I'm talking about my best friend XD
and I know I shouldn't blame myself but it's something i've always done and I find it really easy to do :/

[Amyxoxo]

Oh ok then :L
So anyways ...
I know what it feels like, seriously I will always blame myself, even in big major worldwide events that no one could have stopped!
You have to support her. I know that you know what it is like for her and you don't want her to feel pressured into anything however you know that it is best for her.
Give her a slight hint.
Go get some leaflets from the doctors and give them to her, make sure she knows that if she chooses to get help then she can.
Also make sure that she is safe.
Make sure she knows that you care for her and you always will.
Well that is all I can think of, if I think of anything else I will mention it :) x

[1_21Guns]

Oh ok then :L
So anyways ...
I know what it feels like, seriously I will always blame myself, even in big major worldwide events that no one could have stopped!
You have to support her. I know that you know what it is like for her and you don't want her to feel pressured into anything however you know that it is best for her.
Give her a slight hint.
Go get some leaflets from the doctors and give them to her, make sure she knows that if she chooses to get help then she can.
Also make sure that she is safe.
Make sure she knows that you care for her and you always will.
Well that is all I can think of, if I think of anything else I will mention it :) x

Thank you Amy :) x