differentduck
May 7th, 2010, 11:45 PM
I have this like anxiety thing. It's brought on by so many different things, like social interactions and claustrophobia.
Take the vending machine incident 2 weeks ago. I was trying to decide what to buy from the vending machine at school and there were many people around it. I felt pressured to decide what to get, then I had like a lump in my throat and I felt encased in a glass box. And I felt like everyone was laughing at me, But they weren't.
In gym class, there are a few equipment rooms. They're quite small. I was putting a basketball away, and took out one of those rubber dodgeball sorta ones. I felt fine in there, I knew I could get out. When I went to put the dodgeball away, some idiot locked me in there. And I freaked. My palms got sweaty, I felt dizzy and flushed and like it was hard to breathe. I don't know how to describe this other thing, it was a mixture of like wanting to scream and cry and just drop dead where I was standing.
At the beginning of the year, my school does this event thing in the gym. All three grades are in groups and we have contests. I take no part in these contests, but I am forced to go. When it came to when we had to stand up and scream, I blew up inside and left. I knew a couple friends of mine who were smart enough to talk to the faculty and go to the library instead of the stupid event. So when I left I went to the library. Too bad it was closed. And my friends had been directed elsewhere by some student service workers. I walked around the school aimlessly, trying to find them. I had the same panic attack type thing, until a teacher found me and took me to the student services room and that's where my friends were.
These little things have happened countless times, and I don't know what to do about them. Sorry for making you guys read a giant thing, just need to get it out. What can I do?? Please help.
Take the vending machine incident 2 weeks ago. I was trying to decide what to buy from the vending machine at school and there were many people around it. I felt pressured to decide what to get, then I had like a lump in my throat and I felt encased in a glass box. And I felt like everyone was laughing at me, But they weren't.
In gym class, there are a few equipment rooms. They're quite small. I was putting a basketball away, and took out one of those rubber dodgeball sorta ones. I felt fine in there, I knew I could get out. When I went to put the dodgeball away, some idiot locked me in there. And I freaked. My palms got sweaty, I felt dizzy and flushed and like it was hard to breathe. I don't know how to describe this other thing, it was a mixture of like wanting to scream and cry and just drop dead where I was standing.
At the beginning of the year, my school does this event thing in the gym. All three grades are in groups and we have contests. I take no part in these contests, but I am forced to go. When it came to when we had to stand up and scream, I blew up inside and left. I knew a couple friends of mine who were smart enough to talk to the faculty and go to the library instead of the stupid event. So when I left I went to the library. Too bad it was closed. And my friends had been directed elsewhere by some student service workers. I walked around the school aimlessly, trying to find them. I had the same panic attack type thing, until a teacher found me and took me to the student services room and that's where my friends were.
These little things have happened countless times, and I don't know what to do about them. Sorry for making you guys read a giant thing, just need to get it out. What can I do?? Please help.