Jorsha
May 5th, 2010, 05:25 PM
Hi everyone,
I've decided to join here basically just so I can tell you this - I've become really attracted to my straight best friend! I don't know where the feelings came from but a few months ago, I just realised one day how much I like him, and that sort of made me question myself a bit, I then realised I've never thought the same way, deep down, about any girls.
Just for the record, I've decided that I don't want to be labelled, I consider myself my own person, and don't really like to tag myself as something.
Anyway, The first thing I did, was tell him the first part, sort of, came out to him, to put it like that (I'm not expecting anything, I know 100% it will never happen) and he was ok with it, he's religious you see, and I was worried that he would take it really badly or something. So, we talk about it for a while etc, and everything goes fine, we're still the best of friends etc and I don't think it's affected our relationship in any way. I've also told a few of my other close friends (female) and they've been great about it. I've decided not to tell a great deal of people because to be honest, although I'm proud to be who I am, I've set a date to officially come out to everyone, etc.
I'm really pleased with how it's going so far, and yes there are days where I feel a bit down, because I know what I most want will never happen, and there are times I get a bit jealous and wish I was more like him, but to be honest, telling people, getting this all off my chest has made me the happiest I've been in years! There are times where I toy with the idea of telling him my feelings for him, but to be honest common sense prevails and I'd hate nothing more than to have our friendship gone.
I don't know why I've chosen to share this with you, to be honest I was just in a bit of a thoughtful mood and decided to write it down and not waste it. I don't really know what I can ask for as a reply, but I'm just glad to have got it off my chest once again
I've decided to join here basically just so I can tell you this - I've become really attracted to my straight best friend! I don't know where the feelings came from but a few months ago, I just realised one day how much I like him, and that sort of made me question myself a bit, I then realised I've never thought the same way, deep down, about any girls.
Just for the record, I've decided that I don't want to be labelled, I consider myself my own person, and don't really like to tag myself as something.
Anyway, The first thing I did, was tell him the first part, sort of, came out to him, to put it like that (I'm not expecting anything, I know 100% it will never happen) and he was ok with it, he's religious you see, and I was worried that he would take it really badly or something. So, we talk about it for a while etc, and everything goes fine, we're still the best of friends etc and I don't think it's affected our relationship in any way. I've also told a few of my other close friends (female) and they've been great about it. I've decided not to tell a great deal of people because to be honest, although I'm proud to be who I am, I've set a date to officially come out to everyone, etc.
I'm really pleased with how it's going so far, and yes there are days where I feel a bit down, because I know what I most want will never happen, and there are times I get a bit jealous and wish I was more like him, but to be honest, telling people, getting this all off my chest has made me the happiest I've been in years! There are times where I toy with the idea of telling him my feelings for him, but to be honest common sense prevails and I'd hate nothing more than to have our friendship gone.
I don't know why I've chosen to share this with you, to be honest I was just in a bit of a thoughtful mood and decided to write it down and not waste it. I don't really know what I can ask for as a reply, but I'm just glad to have got it off my chest once again