argh..

[Asylum]

so whenever i look into the mirror i feel extremely fat... i've started eating again and am regrtting it... so now my main source of food is just veggies and i'm trying to slowly cut back again to go into one of those crash diets that never work, but my mind says they do and they make me feel better about myself. i feel more active when i don't eat. like more energized... it's weird... and that helps too... when i eat ifeel tired slow... i don't want to do much, sometimes it's the opposite but mostly his way... sorry for the rant

[1_21Guns]

hun, bottom line is you do need to eat
and those crash diets that you actually know full well don't work are dangerous.
i'm damn sure your not extremely fat, how we see ourselves is really different from how we look.
deciding to eat was a big step, and a good one. don't go back on yourself now you've got that far.

[Asylum]

i know i need to eat... but my mind says no... and i feel so guilty when i do.. :( they are dangerous... i'm underweight so i'm not close to "being fat" however its how i see myself as.. . i'm really trying to eat again. trying not to think... calories... summer, bleh... its just really hard..

[1_21Guns]

i know i need to eat... but my mind says no... and i feel so guilty when i do.. :( they are dangerous... i'm underweight so i'm not close to "being fat" however its how i see myself as.. . i'm really trying to eat again. trying not to think... calories... summer, bleh... its just really hard..

I know hun, i'm kinda going through a similar thing. If your trying, that's all that matters.

[Asylum]

thanx Natalie for your help :)

[1_21Guns]

thanx Natalie for your help :)

no problem :) feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk.